[BrokenNBeautiful]

Hi, Billi here. BTW, thank you ppl for being so understanding on my last thread, "freaked out again".

Anyway, it's starting again. OMG.

I was on the bus yesterday and it was crowded and there were many young men on it. One or two kept staring at me and one or two stood over my seat.

They were mean-looking young men. Of various races/colors.

I felt like I couldn't move or breathe until I could get away.

Anyone here hate being stood over? Towered over or having someone practically breathing down your neck or behind you?

Am I just sick?

What is wrong with me?

The other thing, I had a dream about being m*lested by a young man in my room of childhood. He was lying on top of me, naked and saying over and over again, "Does my w feel good?"

I kept screaming "Get off me! Get off me!" and woke myself up screaming in my sleep.

Billi

(((((billi_lei))))--You are not alone with this feeling---I used to carry my knitting needles on the subways and buses in NYC---felt safer--Oh, yes, I'd be knitting something--but the sick hand that tried to grop me got a shot with a knitting needle everytime !!!

If I happened to be sitting down, I used to get up and go over near the closest door,
or the end of the bus or train I was on; I ne'er liked that feeling--shudders...

No, you are Not Sick!!!

As to the other---check out WePow's site on Abuse--over on Survivor's of Abuse--
she posted it at the top---------It's a great site!! validation --hugs-theo

At the top--the sticky ones.
It's the 16th one in---I just looked----about trusting your body memories, etc..

You gotta read it!!! It's perfect.---hugs theo

[BrokenNBeautiful]

ty.

I will look.

Billi

my friends laugh and think it's weird of me, but I do NOT like it when people are behind me.

[Hunny]

Remember this time I rode the underground in London and the train was so crowded and the 'creep' was pushed up against my body and his p was getting big and I was just feeling like getting the 'heck' outta there but no where to go....very panicky. I hate that! I wrote an incoherent six page letter to my brother trying to tell him about it. I couldn't find the words...this was so many years ago but it reminded me by what you said. Obviously I had, at the time, other undealt with issues, not saying you do but for sure I did.

Hope this helps you feel you are not alone.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

ty.

I looked at the link, too.

Billi