[vanna123]

I am new here also --- joined today (I think).

[vanna123]

this is the first time i really have been at the computer for more than 5 minutes at a time. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and feel the need to be on the go constantly in order to survive. the busier I am the less my symptoms interfere with my life.
I was in a car accident this week which has left me unable to be active and am having difficulty. Difficulty not being on the go--- and difficulty with all the flashbacks, memories, unable to sleep and relax etc etc.
generally my life is pretty good -- great job, good friends, loving boyfriend, and keeping really busy kept the symptoms at bay. What to do now that I am laying around unable to do anyhting but think?
My car was also totaled in the accident --- and now my ionsurance settlement is significantly less than what I owe on the loan. I am not working -- disability takes a while to kick in and I already live paycheck to paycheck. I am feeling overwhelmed.

Welcome vanna123,

I'm sorry you are having a rough time.

PTSD is very difficult to deal with.

You're therapist should be able to help. When do you see them again?

If thoughts etc, become too much, you may want to put a call in for a phone conf.

Take care,

Petunia

[vanna123]

Believe it or not -- the T I was seeing before the accident felt I was Ok enough to stop therapy (so much for HMO's) My Psychiatrist only precribes meds and when I called him his suggestion was to just increase my Trazadone (I have not taken this for over 6 months). He doesn't even remember changing my meds to paxil which he states won't help with the sleep disturbances at this time. But I know that in a week or 2 from now things will look better once again. -- just needed a place to chat and vent. I called my old T back to let her know what was going on and she responded that she was sorry but she is leaving on monday for a 2 week vacation. I know when I get this overwhelmed I tend to take things personally but it seems like nothing is working out. ONE DAY AT A TIME!! I know I know.

[Gemstone]

welcome vanna123!!

I am sorry you are having a rough time. Car accidents can be triggering. I was in one pretty recently myself. We are here for you. Things will get better.

[Schatze]

Welcome Vanna!

Well, this is a great place to rant (and rave if you want). Chat might be a good place for you to hang out for a while since you need to keep busy. There's alot of great people around here to give you the support you need right now. Feel free to private message me too if you like to chat that way.

Really nice to meet ya and look forward to getting to know ya!

Missi

[kimmydawn]

i'm so sorry for the active PTSD right now. it can be horrendous. i'm glad that you're ok physically.

are you considering seeing t again. also, you could go just to family dr and explain what's going on and get med relief for a week or so?

let us know. warm thoughts to you.

kd

[eskielover]

Hi Vanna123,

I can relate to your being busy enough to not let the PTSD in. I am at that point right now. I spend everyday with my horses & practicing my dressage riding....I am usually overheated & exhausted when I am done & then sleep until the next time I go out to be with my horses. It keeps most of the garbage away except a few things are able to sneek in. Since I have found out that keeping busy like that keeps it all away, it has become my way of life. I really don't want to even thing about what would happen if that was taken away from me even for awhile. My psychologist also thought I was doing so good that we could push the sessions to every other week. Then it hit again & I had to start all over....luckily, other issuse showed up too that I didn't even realize were there.

I can understand how having to be away from your lifestyle that was keeping you safe, has allowed all the PTSD issues to come back in. That happens, & it would be a good thing to talk to your therapist & let him know what is going on...I am sure you will be able to start your sessions again....it is important to do while you are really in the middle of experiencing those issues.

This is a great place to get support....I know before I completely understood what was happening to me, everyone here was more than willing to help me understand what was going on...thus giving me feedback to my pdoc.

Good luck....we all are here to help you through this time.
Debbie

[(JD)]

Whew! Sure sounds like enough to overwhelm me too! Welcome to PC, vanna. Try online games or any other distractions that you can find!

[shadowdancer]

welcome to PC...i'm pretty new here too. i'm sorry to hear about how rough things are for you right now but you'll find lots of support here and maybe that will help get you through this rough spot.

-shadowdancer

[vanna123]

Thanks to everyone!
I have been on and off the computer throughout the day today.
it is difficult on the back to sit for more than a few minutes at a time. but really nice to see entries when i return.
it is nice to see how well everyone knows each other hope to get to know everyone, I am glad to have found this site.