Abuse

....emotional abuse leaves scars unseen by others...would do almost anything to be able just to smile today....I miss laughter!

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and to make it even harder to deal with, it's often the hardest for the victim to identify as abuse... it's less blatant, but cuts SO deep.

Yes, laughter and smiling can be very therapeutic for the soul. Also, it seems like emotional abuse is the "hidden" form of abuse and yet it is so powerful in peoples lives. I hope you can somehow find a smile and some laughter soon. Please take care of yourself...

To me emotional abuse is worse than physical abuse. How do you put a band-aid on hurt, fear, abuse?

i was wondering if anyone suffers ptsd from emotional & verbal abuse i am separated from my abuser & he used an opportunity to make it physical abuse & i keep reliving it on top of trying to heal from everything else i had to put my signature on tax refund check so i went with him from the time i got in the car noone can imagine it was planned to get me in there scream at me the whole time & tellin me to catch a cab almost an hour from where i live after we came out of the store i refused he stopped the car in a dark place & physically tried pullin me out of the car with me fightin him the whole time he gave up & all the while the screamin is still goin on like the whole 15 years of it times 2 in that one trip i finally spoke up for myself & this time he violently pulled me out of the car & left me on the road ive worked out ever since i was 15 & im 36 i started walkin & i was in shock so bad i felt like i couldnt even put one leg in front of the other he came back & the only reason i got in was cuz it was so cold & his sister was in the car & when i got home i was in shock this time i actually had physical bruises & scrapes to go along with the inner pain too make things worse it brought back a physical bludgening that looked like somethin out of cold case files that happened when we were both still drinkin when i was 23 he almost killed me that nite the mind & brain r complex things cuz i can only remember a little bit of the beating but then certain flashing scenes from afterwards. after much brainwashin & God knows everything else under the sun he has stolen the last piece he will ever get from me i cant quit the thoughts of the other nite playin in my head & rite now i cant stand to hear sudden loud noises so sick of the fake apologies remorse excuses terrorizing he cant hurt me anymore no not anymore its me & my dad here my dog & cats but i havent told anyone except my dad & t my t was sick that day & it was one of those flat visits for both of us now i know how people r so capable of horrific things witnessing someone in a blind rage & then a lot of times mixed with booze & drugs on top no excuse ever ever ever sick of sad excuses done with the toxic false guilt & shame cuz when u dont have contact with the abuser anymore as i havent the fog starts liftin & then comes all the anger revelation of hey it was u all that time not me

You are amazing. It was him. Not you.

Your panic is so understandable. I hope in time u ll find peace of mind and be free of the negativity.

That car scene reminds me of my own car scenes.

I see it now like this - positivity is the only way to heal. I make sure i surround myself with good positive people and things. Every day with positive around me makes me stronger.

Yes, emotional abuse is very hard. But, think about it this way.When you are sad because of it, this means you have accepted it.Think about what this means, you have allowed it to effect you/your brain.Now Listen, this is your brain. Your brain belongs to you, not the abuser.If you think of your brain as a child, then you are allowing someone to hurt your child. What would you do if it was a physical child standing beside you?You would yell at the abuser and walk away and say to the child, this is a bad person, there are many bad people in the world, so we must learn to not let them hurt us and walk away. These bad people have a problem, we do not have to listen to them or be around them.For the rest of your life, you are the guardian of your brain. And the brain is always going to be a child growing and learning that has to be protected.So, with that said, you must take your brain and say, we do not need to let anyone hurt us or make us feel sad. Now, we must find something to experience that will help us feel happy. Do not let any abuser harm your child (brain). It sounds like you are a kind person. You must protect this nice little child, it does not deserve to be put in bad places where someone can harm it. Now listen, get the child away from the abuser, NOW. Before the abuser causes more harm to that CHILD!!!!!!

I can understand your pain. It is hard to live with. I to am a mother, employee, artist, and sufferer of ptsd drom an abusive ex.