[Bluelake]

Its awful. I can drink a doubleshot expresso and then fall asleep. I dont want to go out and my friends have about giving up on me bc I keep canceling plans.

[skeksi]

Ugh, I've been this way, too. Two things come to my mind.

1. Are you okay medically? I turned out to have a thyroid condition that was contributing to my tiredness. Make sure you mention this at your next physical. Depression or dissociation can also contribute to sleepiness.

2. How is your nighttime sleep? Are you waking up a lot, or afraid to sleep, or waking early? Those interruptions to a normal sleep schedule can be exhausting.

3. How is your daily routine? Do you get up and go to sleep about the same time every day, take naps, etc? Do you avoid caffeine after lunch (it can make sleeping at night harder)?

Sleep problems are the worst

[Bluelake]

I drink way too much caffeine. But I cant function without it. I think its more related to depression. I am afraid to go to sleep. I have very vivid dreams. i think that I am finally mourning over a trauma I had nearly three years ago.
But it doesnt hurt to have a blood test done. Thats what insurance is for. Thankfully, i finally have it.

[skeksi]

I drink way too much caffeine. But I cant function without it. I think its more related to depression. I am afraid to go to sleep.

I have had a pattern of being terrified to sleep, so I am not well rested, so I drink tons of caffeine during the day to manage. Then I am terrified to sleep again at night, plus the caffeine is adding to it, so I don't sleep well, so I need caffeine the next day to function...ad nauseum. It's a vicious circle.

What worked for me was finally processing things in therapy. I know you are working on finding the right fit in your therapy. Personally, I needed prescription medication to help improve my sleep (it is non-addicting). But for many people, just being able to process things with T can significantly improve sleep problems.

I am glad you finally have insurance! It never hurts to get checked out. You might tell the doctor about the sleeping fears as well.

[Bluelake]

Well I started drinking the coffee drinks instead of doubleshots everyday to wean myself off but I still need the DS for work. Yes I think you are right that I need to process this stuff. TI brought a lot out and I need to deal with it. I think that ptsd really, when you get down to it is nothing more than delayed grief.