[MissMay1977]

Anyone else have Stockhelm Syndrome?

[volatile]

i have experienced it, i'm not going to say that i have it

[I had no idea]

I also believe I have experienced it, but cannot say I have it or have been told I have it. I just know that testifying in court was very difficult because I felt bad for them and didn't want to hurt them. I felt so guilty to face them and let them know I was now on the other side. Even after the trials now I continue to think about them & how their lives are.

[Open Eyes]

I would have to say that I have exerienced it too. I think I lived it growing up.
I think that when you are a long term victim you can see that there is some kind of mental illness or issue involved with the person that seems to hold you captive for some reason.

And there is a sadness to it that is very hard to describe. And unless you have experienced it, it is very hard to understand. And when I first saw this thread I had to let it perculate in my mind because most of my childhood I was abused by my brother and yet I felt sorry for him and loved him too. And I could not tell that I was being abused. I really never thought about that time in my life as stockholmes syndrome, but after this word has perculated in my mind I can see it.

In fact I am glad you started this thread because I am going to talk about it with my T.

I am in another situation where I am having similar emotions and I see something similar where someone is struggling somehow, maybe a deline in abilities and I am at a point where I honestly don't know what to do. And it is bringing back a lot of those feelings of I feel bad but it is hurting me but this person is hurting too and what do I do and if I ask for help it might hurt me more and what do I do?

And I am very angry that I am in this situation and it has an eary similarity to it that makes me really uncomfortable.

I am really going to talk about this with my T.

Open Eyes

[WePow]

(((MissMay)))) ((((Open Eyes)))))

Yes. I was molested at the age of 11 by a friend of my sisters who lived out of state. That lady was 24 at the time. Whenever I visited my sister, more occured. I also have DID and PTSD from other big issues. I "fell in love" with that lady when I was 15yrs old. When I was 18 and in a deadly situation with a husband who would be my ex after 6 months of pure hell, she came to "rescue" me and take me to live with her. I lived with her until I was 28 and graduated from college.

The situation was very complex. Very emotionally manipulative (from her - even though she blamed ME for "using" her). And very VERY messed up. A VERY messed up situation that whole thing.

When I finally was able to leave her (I was trapped because I was too poor and she would threaten to send me back to my ex husband who would kill me), I was 28. I met a new partner and have been healing more and more each day. I am now 41.

Bottom line is that even until recently (last year), I blamed everything wrong with that relationship on myself. I was not good enough. I was this. I was that. I did this even while starting therapy (and after having been in therapy in college).
I could not see the one I considered to be the love of my life as anything less than angelic.

It has taken a LOT for my T to show me that it was not my fault a grown woman abused me when I was 11 yrs old. And no matter what type of grooming she did to me, and how much my feelings were bent toward protecting her and such, the bottom line is she was in the wrong. Seriously in the wrong.

My heart goes out to you. Big hugs!

[Open Eyes]

I wanted to talk about this with my T this week but my anger over my attorney got in the way. Ugh, I just wish this whole experience with the result from my neighbor's negligence would just be over so I can focus on myself and getting on with life.

I will have to try again and see if there is time to discuss this next time.

Thanks wepow for sharing. Until I saw this I never tought about this being a part of my past. It might explain how even though I was so frightened I also felt sorry for my brother, I was so confused when I was little and frightened too.

I tried to talk with my therapist about how this situation with my attorney triggers me and my past, but there just wasn't enough time to dive into my past and explain how it brings me to those same feelings of being trapped and not knowing how to get help. I actually can't believe how earily similar it is. Wondering how, if I tell, how it might make things worse and I might suffer more. How awful is that at my age.
At least I have had a couple people from PC at least reach out to me. I had no one growing up, only my stuffed animals and eventually my pony.

And the odd thing about it is that when my husband learned of my past he couldn't understand why I didn't stand up for myself, but he wasn't there, I was clearly overpowered. And oddly enough he sees me stuggle now, but he is fearful too and is not really sure he wants to see the truth. And yet he sees it. It is so strange. And I feel like I cant say anything and truely explain it. And it is the kind of experience where you have to be there and witness it, only I the one that is seeing it and experiencing it. It's just not as easy as some people might think.

I am not sure if this is stockholmes or not, but I wonder. I truely feel a very similar strange trap.

Open Eyes

Some people have said that I have it. I am still unsure... more likely that I am in denial.