[sweepy62]

Hi i am currently in therapy for almost a year i am diagnosed with borderline personality clinical depression generalized anxiety i grew up in a very violent and abusive dysfunctional family my dad was the violent alcoholic my mom was on valium for her nerves i remember she attempted suicide i was 11 but i remember things from way back

i had to tend to my young sisters feed them clean the house and sometimes pick up my dad from the bar at 2 am i was 11 yrs old cops use to be called to the house every other day

we always had to sleep with clothes on and had an emergency bag ready to run because he come home violent and drunk and in the dead of winter we had to escape my mom and sisters sometimes we would hide in a dumpster across the street or in someones basement i would always wet the bed out of nerves

so to this day i started therapy at the age of 42 and i cannot wear pajamas to bed i sleep with shorts and a tee shirt my husband does not get it

i also cant have anything loud playing like tv or music because it startles me arguments between people give me anxiety sorry for the long description

[kaliope]

well we cant diagnose here, but that type of life certainly sounds like it could contribute to such a diagnosis. have you been evaluated for PTSD? you have certainly been put in life threatening situations. do you have a therapist? i would definately talk to a therapist about the possibility. it could make a world of difference in your treatment.

i tried counseling and meds just addressing the bipolar and never really got anywhere. it was not until i was diagnosed with ptsd that everything came together and made sense. when therapy and treatment focused on that i made great strides in becoming healthy again.

good luck.

[Open Eyes]

((((sweepy))))

While none of us here can diagnose, I have to agree that you could have what is called complex PTSD which stems from childhood abuse. It is possible to have BPD as well. I think that you should see someone who truely specialized in PTSD as many symptoms can mimic other disorders and it can be misdiagnosed. If you are addressing PTSD getting therapy for it will help you understand many of the things you do, some you may not realize you do. I can help make sense of some of the symptoms you are expressing here and possibly others that you may not be aware of.
And that can help you understand yourself better and learn how to look at yourself in a much more understanding way.

I am very sorry that your past was so full of fears and uncertainty. You can find your way to feeling better.

Open Eyes

[tryingtorebuild]

*Hug for you*

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

((((sweepy))))

While none of us here can diagnose, I have to agree that you could have what is called complex PTSD which stems from childhood abuse. It is possible to have BPD as well. I think that you should see someone who truely specialized in PTSD as many symptoms can mimic other disorders and it can be misdiagnosed. If you are addressing PTSD getting therapy for it will help you understand many of the things you do, some you may not realize you do. I can help make sense of some of the symptoms you are expressing here and possibly others that you may not be aware of.
And that can help you understand yourself better and learn how to look at yourself in a much more understanding way.

I am very sorry that your past was so full of fears and uncertainty. You can find your way to feeling better.

Open Eyes

thanks i am seeing a therapist for borderline personality clinical depression and generalized anxiety i just did not know whether u can have both borderline and ptsd thank you for your support i will ask my therapist

[geez]

sweepy did you get an answer to your question? I'm curious :-)