[crazylife]

I've read quite a few posts now that say you take your time and aren't rushed so why do i feel rushed? My T is great but it always feels like the clock is ticking to do this work and the more i'm pushing the harder it is to talk. Is it me? Am i rushing it along because i'm fed up of feeling like this because of PTSD??? It was but now I've been given more time it still feels rushed and in sessions i'm meant to be focusing and all i can hear is tick tick tick. I think i feel like if i don't do this work i'll loose my chance. It's so confusing. I've gone from saying nothing about it really i couldn't even say his name to start with and now i say his name occasionally in sentences it makes me laugh when my T says who even though he knows. I'm worried i'm going to mess it up by rushing and loose everything. Am i over reacting?

[geez]

I'm not an expert and I can share with you my experience. I spent 3 years in therapy. It took me a longgggg time to process it. Then I ended therapy because I thought and believed I was done. Then three months later some new feelings have come up that I didn't know existed. Almost like a higher level of understanding (think of layers of an onion).

What you posted would be a good discussion to have with T. Let us know how it goes.

Don't know if any of this helps but sending you comforting thoughts.

[crazylife]

It does thank you Rushing won't help and i will be talking it through with T.

I don't think you're overreacting. I hate when people put a rush on my healing & letting things go. I will heal in my time, let go in my time, I'll open up in my time, etc., etc. I wish people will get that we all won't get through our issues in a set time frame. It may take days, weeks, months, even years to fully come to terms with some things. Definitely talk to your T about this...he/she needs to know how it is affecting you. I wish you nothing but the best, take care. *hugs*

[crazylife]

I was thinking about bringing this up with T on Wednesday but i don't know how to approach this as he works on set time frames mines gone from 20 sessions to now being 1st August and although i know this is a long time having the pressure of each week time running out i find myself getting panicky and trying to rush it and making myself worse. Avoiding thinking about it doesn't work i wish i didn't know about the deadline now. ARG! There isn't much i can do to change this as far as i know.