[shezbut]

I was on PC for over an hour and felt fine.

Then, I made a mistake by reading a post that no one had responded to yet, by a new poster in a general room. Holy smokes!!

It wasn't until halfway through that the poster referred to some very dark fantasies that they have daily, but haven't told anyone about ~ until now. The person sounded rather intense and adament that they would someday live up to their fantasies.

I quickly reported the post, to get it removed ASAP. Now, nearly every post title that I see makes these feelings inside of me even worse! I just feel like running away from the computer and I had really been hoping for hugs and feedback to my recent post in the BPD section. Should I stay or should I go???

I don't even have anywhere that I can go now. It's all super-hot and humid outside today, I still need $ to pay my YMCA fees, and I don't want to be around others either. What a day!!!

[Open Eyes]

Oh ((Shez)) I am so sorry, thank goodness you reported it and hopefully no one else saw it and got triggered by it. But "you" did see it and I am sure you are experiencing the "flight' part of PTSD. Ok, try to calm down and know that this person is not going to harm you and you are safe. I wish I lived close enough to you so I could drive over and go for a walk with you and help you calm down and feel safe again.

Sometimes Shez, there are threads and areas I just cant go near. I get triggered too so I have to be careful and I "do" stay away from certain areas, however, that was a new member? So that could be "any" disorder coming in. Hopefully the fact that you had that deleted will help PC make sure that member is watched.

Can you put on the TV and watch something that is calming and reassuring, that is what I do, and it helps me calm down alot.

I am here, so if you need to talk more I will check back later.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[shezbut]

Hi Open Eyes,

I did take a break from the computer for a few hours and watched a couple of stand up comedy routines that were real funny. That helped!

I just had to go into that area again to see if the post had been deleted. It hasn't! The title did have a trigger warning beside it, but they left it up. I can't believe that PC felt that the post wasn't too intense! Now, I'm wondering, "WTH???" Am I just kind of hyper-sensitive about some topics, but these topics still deserve some time and attention from others?

If so, how do I know in the future what topics or areas I should avoid? It makes me feel kind of bare and spooked (or something like that).

[Open Eyes]

Yes, I can see how you would react that way. I sometimes have wondered that myself about PC. I have tried to learn to take a time out and think about the big picture and how it may be just "me" that is more sensitive to certain things.

I have noticed that some things that "trigger" others don't trigger me, and visa versa.
And I learn to look at things differently instead of sometimes the "limits" of my own sense of "safety" that I may not be aware of.

If you report something and it is not deleted, then there is not much you can do. Unfortunately, what I have learned is that if we report and something is "not" deleted, we don't get any answer or contact as to "why".

It reminds me of the horse shows where I would see something I wondered about and would ask and be told "that is something your trainer should talk to you about". Well, that is just like being told here, "that is something you should discuss with your T."

You can however PM me with the thread and I will look at it and give you my opinion.
If it triggeres me as well, I may also report it. Or, I may see why they left it.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[Big Mama]

Shez, you did right to report this. I to have seen things that were disturbing. Some area's I don't even go into because I know they will cause triggers bad. There are some forums I'll just never ever read.

Just remember you have alot of friends here. If you need something the people who respect you will be here waiting.

[Setso]

Hang in there
Your going to be okay

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