[merlin87tx]

I've read up on this and studied it but I'm not sure if I'm applicable.

I went through a pretty tough time as a child. Both mental and physical abuse, isolation, neglect in both emotional and basic needs. I managed to pull through it and now I'm on my own but it's hard.

I run into situations where I hear people yelling angrily and I tear up. They might not even be yelling or being angry at me but I cry. I find myself crying at the slightest surprise or even hint of anger around me. The only way to keep myself from crying is to bite down on my finger or find someplace quiet to take really deep breaths. It doesn't always work though.

I can't just cry at work. I can't just go around, worried that I'll break down for no apparent reason.

With the stress of work, where I'm working triple shifts and with no real exit on that, a relationship where my partner is working through depression as well, and with no real support around me; I'm finding myself on my last shred of strength. I feel like I'm losing it right now.

The only thing keeping me from just falling apart, is will power. But the crying, it's embarrassing and frustrating.

[AngelWolf3]

Regardless, you are definitely going through a very difficult time right now. I don't know if it is or is Not PTSD, since I am def not a T (therapist) or a doctor, but you might benefit from talking to a T or someone who can help you ...if you have time for that with how much you are working? I don't even know if this is helpful or not, but keep posting...

[jelly-bean]

It could be PTSD or Depression. None of us are doctors and cannot give you a diagnosis. I do suggest that you go to your doctor and tell him/her of your feelings. You can maybe get meds that will help you and/or a referral to a therapist. I hope that you get to feeling better. Please post again and let us know how it is going. Use the depression forum as well. We are your support system and at the very least we can listen and maybe even help some.