[Angel0069]

Hey Everyone. Great to be here.
I have been reading posts from here and from abuse survivors and for the first time in months,I don't feel so alone. For months I thought I was going crazy,and finding myself thinking this can't be normal. As I go through the posts,I see that other people are going through the same thing. I won't go into it all now,but if you have any questions,please feel free to ask. I was in a very abusive relationship for a long time and been out of it for quite sometime now. I now have PTSD and the symptoms seem to be getting worse,they control every aspect of my life,including my relationship. I also have other disorders,one of wich is BPD. After I left the abusive relationship,I started doing alot of soul searching and getting stronger. I even started writing a book,dealing with mental illness,abuse, what My children and I went through and what I had learned about life,love and myself.I got into and still in a relationship 3 years ago(not abusive) when I was at what I see as a very critical point in my soulsearching. Dealing with the abuse that we went throughand forgiving myself for not protecting my children. My fiance has a child with his ex(very controling and jealous.She caused alot of problems for us.So to make a long story,short(lol) I was there for my fiance and stepson 110% but put myself and what I needed to do on the back burner. The PTSD symptoms started getting bad not to long after we got together,and over time would get worse to the point where it is today,I didn't know until late last year,early this year what it was and that was only cause I was looking for info on the net on healing from abuse. I know what the BPD me is like and that wasn't it there was something else going on with my mind. My fiance and I took a couple of online tests for PTSD and I past both with flying colors. We tried to talk to my T about it but all they said was you are not going crazy and that the therapy(DBT skills) were more imprtant than the diagnosis.He also asked me if the symptoms got worse since finding the info on the net.(lol)So I still don't know alot about PTSD or comlpex PTSD so I would be greatful for any info,and to talk to others. I am already greatfull for finding this site. Thank You

[Lexicon78]

(((((Angel)))))

I'm so sorry that you had been put through abuse. It's not fun at all.

Hang in there and do the best you can. We're all here for you!

[bipolar_bear]

Welcome to PC. I am sorry for all you have gone through. Please take care of yourself.

Welcome

[walkswithspiritbear]

Welcome to PC angel ((((Angel))) and know that there will be many who can offer support and care to you.. Keep on posting there are many great people who genuinely care here and will do all they can to be there for you. Linda

[Larry_Hoover]

Welcome.
We're good listeners.
And I think we understand things that others just don't.

Lar

[(JD)]

Welcome to PC angel! For assistance in my ability to read and comprehend your posts, if you could separate the words into smaller paragraphs, I would appreciate it!

PTSD is a beast.

I'm new too, but I just wanted to say hello and I'm sorry for all the hurt you've been through. Hope you can find some healing soon.

[LILITH]

Welcome to PC, I find it very comforting here... You are among friends here.... I am so sorry for the abuse that happened to you.... I think you are on your journey to recovery.... take care..