dreams are back.. *may trigger*

lately i've been having very strange dreams,
there's one where i am a horse, a beautiful white pecked horse. I jumped the barbwire fence only to land in a deep ditch causing me to break my leg. I can no longer stand, i lay on the grass in pain. i'm scared, i don't know what will happen to me. i hear someone walk to me as i'm laying there in pain. i can't see who it is, all i can see is a gun, aimed at my head. they're holding me down by a foot on my neck. before i could even think, bam. i was shot, but not dead. i can no longer breath, i'm fighting for my breath but can't find it, it's too hard, its too late.
with this dream, i have actually been told i stop breathing and twitch alot. i suddenly wake up from this dream fighting for air. strange thing is with this dream is that this actually happened to my neighbours horse about 2 years ago.

the other dream is from a sexual assault that happened to me when i was 15yrs old. i stopped having these dreams when i was about 16, but couple weeks ago i started dreaming about it again. i'd be crying in my sleep begging someone to stop him. i thought i had him out of my head but now that i've started having dreams about it again it's beginning to make me really hopeless and anxious like every face i see is his. i'm almost 18 and i've been on and off several different kids of medication and in and out of the hospital.

I really don't want to slip back into all that again, i've worked so hard to get better.

Its almost the time it happened again. Im so sorry its triggering this dream of yours. Just keep pushing through your a strong girl! Happy belated birthday and Merry Christmas and Happy New Years <3

oh. sorry.

Thanks Brennan, i won't be giving up any time soon.
merry christmas and happy new year to you too. oh and happy early birthday, hope it's awesome.
miss you, xox.