[obsids]

I am triggered beyond control.

Today I made the stupid mistake of trying to extend kindness to neighbors who have been a problem in the past. I was going to offer them a load of free sand that my next door neighbor has been trying to get rid of.

They just told me that I was on private property and to leave immediately.... before I could even speak. Now they are at a BBQ at the neighbors on the other side of me. They are thugs with tattoos and motorcycles. He makes his living as a thug for the heavy equipment operators union.

Stupid, arrogant, and cruel they are. I know it is wrong to wish evil on anyone, but I do. I hope that their ugly dog chews the face off their thick-headed daughter.

I want to scream. I want to hurt them. I want them to go away and never return.

[(JD)]

Don't let them hurt you this way. You did good in trying to be nice...and they aren't able to accept it. That's their problem. Neighbors are a weird group, eh???

Who they are doesn't reflect upon who you are... keep doing good. TC

[hillbunnyb]

It's hard to deal with jerks, especially when they are your neighbors. Have you tried venting by throwing ice cubes against soemthing hard so they shatter? It's satisfying (a lot like breaking glass) but with no cleanup problems and doesn't hurt anybody.

I realize you are upset, but wishing someone's face be chewed off is inappropriate. I hope you will take a look at what you do with your anger, seems to me like you've got some issues.... I wish you well.

[Valis]

I know that feeling all too well; when your pleasant to someone, and all they seem to do is slap you in the face.

Like everyone else has said, just realize you've did your best with them, and move on.

[obsids]

Thank you for your understanding, Sky.

[obsids]

I will try to be patient with your reply, hillbunny. But do keep in mind what forum this is. I am painfully aware of my "issues." It is the very nature of PTSD, and thus I post here my frustrations and challenges.

It would be well-advised, perhaps, that you refrain from recommending to someone with PTSD that they have anger issues.

I wish not to start a war. I shall leave then, lest I offend anyone.

[hillbunnyb]

Oh NO I missed the point!!!!! Humble apologies. Rave on. I'll keep me mouth shut. It's been a while since I was so raw.... gives me a reading on how far I've come in my healing.... I guess, with all the news reports of dogs chewing faces off kids in real life I had a trigger of my own.

I think in retrospect, what I was asking from you was a different image. . . to express your valid rage....

Peace?