[joe456]

I use the computer here mostly. But it's my mom's. I say I used it about 60% of the time in the beggining. Now, I use it 30%. I have been doing this for awhile now. All my life so far, I have been a shy guy around the girls. I always gazed at the magazines of Victoria's Secret. Yes I know it sounds strange. But since I am a shy guy around girls, these pics make me smile and feel safe. My mother is kind of a cotrolling person and I dont like that. Other than njoying the pics, nothing happens between me and the pics. I just have them up. Nothing more. It all started when I was NEVER allowed to put posters up on my walls. So after awhile, I used the computer background. Experimenting with the computer screen. I would leave them up there even when I'm not using it to see if I would get yelled at because I would have them on there all the time. Even when I am not currently using the computer or at home. Like, I deleted all the default computer background pics Windows has to make room and replaced them all with these. For some reason which is quite stupid, I was never allowed to create my own account. In the end, as much as this sounds strange, these pics make me feel safe and welcomed in a world of hell. Also, howcome I never got yelled at for it?

[NoCake]

I can't get any of those links working. But I checked out the maris site an she's a model. Anyway looking at girls in bikinis is a normal guy thing lol. They even have calendars with models posing on them. But obviously your mother isn't going to want to see that sort of thing. Maybe she just sees it as a normal guy thing and is ok with it as long as it stays in your room? Seriously if one of those ends up in the hallway...

But I'm not sure what you mean when you say they make you feel safe. What do they make you feel safe from?

[shezbut]

Your enjoyment of a Victoria's Secret magazine or website isn't unusual at all. I doubt that anyone thinks that you're weird ~ don't worry about that!

What surprises you about not being yelled at for going to these sites?? You're young..having pics up of sexy photos is pretty darn common for boys and girls. So long as you don't become too obsessive about it, I'd expect your mom to be pretty understanding. Heck, a lot of men hold onto sexy calendars and posters & display them in the garage for many years!