Ummmm...ahhhhhhhh...okay, I will say it.

I feel very scared, today.

-Fleeing

Thanks for saying it Fleeing.
It's brave to admit the way you feel. Sometimes I am very scared. I am a little on the edge at the moment, a little out of control, and that's scary. Is that how you are feeling?
It will pass. Stressful things have gone on and it's a struggle to cope.
You know where I am if you need me x

((fleeing))), these days often "do" pop up, and they can be a challenge, try to do extra "self soothing" if you can, let go of the "pressure to have to be something" and perhaps just watch a little TV or read and relax some. These "feeling scared" times are just like all the other parts of the PTSD symptoms that come forward, and they all come in like a wave for a time and "then they always receed". Instead of allowing these waves to "frighten you", "acknowledge them" and reassure yourself that they will come in for a time, but they "will" pass as well. Try to remember that all people have these "fearful" emotions that come forward from time to time, they represent "doubt" or "uncertainty" which is "normal for all of us to feel at times". With PTSD however, these emotions are "magnified" and can seem "more profound or pronouced" then normal, but that doesn't mean we have to "feed into them and experience some kind of "doom".

What I do myself is I do acknowledge them, I try to see if I can track what may have triggered them to come about too. I make sure I do my best to avoid this feeling of "doom" to take over and push me into a cycle though. I take time to focus on relaxing my mind and allow myself to just "let go" and think about some more "pleasant" things, calming things and as I do that, I slowly regain my sense of balance in the here and now. With all the "waves" that I experience with PTSD, I have learned to "slow down, relax my mind" and gain on my skills to keep a sense of overall balance, verses getting myself into some kind of panic. You actually "can" gain more control than you realize. It is all about "self observing, acknowledging, and self soothing" the more you practice it, the more you gain control.

(((Gentle calming hugs)))

Open Eyes

That reply was enlightening, over the past week i have been feeling impending doom, then i thought because my birthday was last week, i was thinking of death. i used to be obsessed with death, not just mine but everybody's. i think it is also because of the fact that there has been alot of death in my family, and now that i'm getting older i'm sure there is more coming if not even my own, in fact i was talking about one of my uncles on the phone about his death years ago, and i told my mother who i wanted to be buried next to in the cemetary, meaning my grandfathers side of the family, my mother's father. He was killed when a plane crashed into the Empire State Building in 1945. i want to be near him.

((Avlady)), whenever we hear about a death, whether it be in our own family or of someone that might be a celebrity etc, it is normal to think about our own mortality.
It can even present a "depressed" feeling too. However, it can also be a reminder to make sure we do our best to "appreciate" our life a little more, be open to leaning and paying attention to the fact that for a time we get to be a part of the life of our planet and all the wonders it has to see and behold. I think we tend to get too rapped up in "purpose" and forget to stop and just be a part of "life".

Open Eyes