[ThisWayOut]

I've noticed my startle reflex is super-sensitive today, and loud noises make my heart skip several beats. My mom's been loud already this morning, and it's sent shivers down my spine. I want to go hide. Better yet, I want her to leave for her errands and be gone from the house for as long as possible... I'm not sure why everything is suddenly on over-drive today. I can't pinpoint the trigger that set me off. I know my whole body has been physically sensitive for the last few days, and the depression has been worse, but this heightened awareness seems to have just blossomed again overnight... I want to cry and hide all day today. I want to be alone. Maybe I will take some of the animals outside with me and do a photo-shoot or something... Maybe my wife can help wrangle the snakes into one picture...
Does anyone else have days where everything is just so much more intense? Are you able to figure out why it happens? I feel like sometimes this stuff just comes out of nowhere... I'm guessing I don't yet realize all my triggers

[kaliope]

mdmgtraini remember days like this. what I remember most is how harshly I would judge myself for being so weak at not being able to cope. the biggest step to healing I took was learning to accept me for me. I adopted the pharse "this is normal for me" for times like this because I felt so freakish, I needed to tell myself over and over again that I was having a perfectly normal response based on my history. I learned not to beat myself up trying to pinpoint the whys, just accept that something triggered it and I didn't need to know why. I just needed to nurture myself as I had this perfectly normal for me response. and soon, as I had these "perfectly normal for me" responses, I stopped panicking about them, I was able to identify them as normal quicker and breathe through them easier and today, they don't stop me in my tracks any more. I cant tell you the last time I had a panic attack or dissociated. perfectly normal for me has become perfectly normal. it takes time, but it works. good luck.

[Open Eyes]

Yes, I have these days too and I agree that they are frustrating because I don't always know "why" or "what triggered" the day to be a bad one.

I was extremely depressed and tired yesterday and today. I figured out that what triggered it was seeing an article about Weiner, and it reminded me of a lot of pain I went through with my husband. But I was actually having "emotional/depressive" flashbacks. However, I also have other things going on in my family that have been tiring me out and bringing forward some anxiety, or physical pain that I have to really think through, it's so much work some days tbh. I hear you.

OE