[OutlawedSpirit]

Hey everyone. I've never posted on this forum before, but I've been on the site a while. I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type and PTSD. This past year has been a roller coaster searching for meds, stability, and answers.

I am envisioning some lengthy, insightful post, but it is probably not going to turn out that way. I've found a good support group on the forums centering around my schizoaffective, but I guess I'm looking now for support and answers for my PTSD. My wife thinks that everything stems from that. Maybe she's right, I don't know.

I'm not sure I'm ready to really talk about the cause of my PTSD, but maybe I need to be. My pdoc and T both know about it, but they said if I'm not ready to talk about it, I don't have to. Maybe it's time to talk about it, whether I'm ready or not cause I'm not sure I'll ever really be ready.

[catsrhelm]

We have a PTSD forum. I suggest you visit it.

[Open Eyes]

((OutLawedSpirit))),

Maybe your wife's intuition is on target and it may be worth exploring so you can finally heal some old wounds that may be the culprit to many of the challenging symptoms you are trying to manage.

Complex post traumatic stress disorder (complex ptsd, pdsd, shell shock, nervous shock, combat fatigue), symptoms and the difference between mental illness and psychiatric injury explained is a good place to research and covers a lot of areas where PTSD can develop.

Often someone is diagnosed with different disorders when what is really happening is that they have PTSD that has symptoms that are very similar to other disorders. I had been misdiagnosed and finally was diagnosed correctly and when I researched it further it was as if someone had finally "knew me".

It isn't just finally opening up about your past, it is understand how things you may have experienced that were traumatic to you affected you in ways you didn't understand.

OE

[Teacake]

Hey, Outlaw that's not an Illinois landscape is it? Looks like New Mexico or Colorado.

I've found there is sometimes a pressing need to talk. When that happens, talk. There are therapies like EMDR and brainspotting that don't require you to talk, although you can if you feel the need. I like somatic therapies like David Bercelis Trauma Releasing Exercises. Interesting YouTube videos of that. It feels really good, even if it looks a bit strange.

Good luck to you. You can feel good again. We are forever changed but we're not broken or damaged. We heal. We get better.

I even saw "schizotypy" get better with trauma therapy. So was it schizotypy or was it ptsd? Doesn't matter to me. It was fun, and now its gone. Such is life.