[matchbox20]

First of all, it's safe to say I haven't had the best luck with the men in my life. My father was (is) mentally abusive to my sister and I, and both mentally and physically abusive to my younger brothers. A year ago I ended a train-wreck of a six month on and off relationship with a monster of a man who sexually and mentally abused me. Since then, I'm uncomfortable (to say the least) when people (ESPECIALLY men) I don't know very well are close to me, and forget about it if they unexpectedly have any sort of physical contact with me. I've always been an introvert, and I do like the occasional hug or high five etc. But not if they're not invited in my "hula hoop," as I call it. But since the break up, it's just gotten worse and worse. I don't even know I do it anymore, it's practically a reflex by now. A guy taps my shoulder, I flinch and move away. A guy stands closer than a foot away from me, I back away. It's driving me crazy. It's irrational, and it's pushing away people who just want to be friendly with me. I was never officially diagnosed with PTSD, but I'm starting to diagnose myself with it. I just don't know anymore.

[Inedible]

If your blood pressure is high enough for you to take propranolol - it is to lower blood pressure - I think it could help. It has side effects on the amygdala, the section of the brain that signals alarm. I was reading a study that suggested giving propranolol to people who were victims of violent crimes because it helps to block the cycle of replaying and reliving it in their minds.

And a suggestion I read here a couple years ago was to get some touch in the form of massage. It is a controlled setting.

[falling star]

I am sorry you are struggling so much right now. I want to invite you to a new chat group we are having starting Thursday night on Women that have been assaulted. It might help to be around others going through the same things. We will be talking about boundaries with others and making our own. Star

Here is the link if you want to know more about it. http://forums.psychcentral.com/chat-...ml#post3255485

[matchbox20]

Hmm, that sounds like it could be helpful. Thanks for the suggestion, I'll talk to my psychiatrist about it.

Cheers

[matchbox20]

Thanks, I'll be sure to check it out.

Cheers