[shamon86]

Worried about the feelings tomorrow may bring as it's the anniversary of my mother's passing. I was there, witnessed the entire thing and have flashbacks, especially during this time of year. I've never been diagnosed with PTSD, however I have to wonder sometimes if I do have it as I think about it frequently during the months before and after the anniversary of her passing. I have been diagnosed with depression and I really don't think that adding one more condition to the mix is going to change my treatment plan but I'm not entirely sure.
I'm mostly worried because I have lately been having suicidal urges and I don't trust myself not to do anything. No one can help me with these feelings and its becoming very frustrating. Any tips on this?

[gayleggg]

Sorry you are in pain. Anniversaries are always tough. If you don't trust yourself to be safe go to your nearest ER. Is there anyone that could stay with you tomorrow? And just be there to sit with you? Keep posting.

[Open Eyes]

You can also look up complicated grief too there are a lot of links to read and learn where your symptoms are normal and how to help yourself with it.

You are not alone, you are grieving and these challenging times do come and go.

Here is one link to click on, but there are more links that can be helpful too

http://www.webmd.com/balance/tc/grie...eving-symptoms

(((Hugs))
OE