Need the nightmares to stop

With preparing to go back to work when I graduate in a little over a month, the nightmares have come back full force in which I am always powerless and out of control of a situation with some kind of real harm coming to me, and not always in the same way as the attack but sometimes in another form. I hate how real they are and are starting to shake my confidence, making me afraid to sleep at night, and in also exacerbating what very little fear I had during the days as am having flashbacks now again that I am starting to doubt whether I can do this and if it is worth it. Things have been calm for so long, I know I cannot cope with it starting over again.

I wonder whether a sleep med would make it worse or better but I have it for when I have insomnia; I need to contact my doc. I just need them to stop. I am becoming paranoid again, jumping at my own shadow, and not able to function, shutting down during the day as it all comes back to me. Is this really going to be worth it that perhaps the status quo is better to not trigger it; is this going to keep me from my being able to do more with my life, this one awful event that never ends?! I don't want to give it anymore power but I am succumbing to the pain and fear again. I don't want to give in to it but am finding myself in its grips. How can I take my life back?!

I don't know that there are any answers but I needed to get this out as am stressed beyond words at this point. Thanks in advance for listening, it means alot.

My personal experience has been that GABA powder from the health food store eliminates nightmares without disrupting REM sleep and dreams within a week. GABA depletes under prolonged stress. Depletion of GABA creates a cascade of braim-body imbalance which spiral into anxiety and depression, bodily tension, indigestion/malabsorbtion...

I invite you to read pain researcher Billie J. Sahley's ten dollar book GABA the Anxiety Amino Acid. It is informative. It's an excellent little resource book for anyone who might experience pain, anxiety, depress8on, post traumatic stress...

Or you can try the patented medicine gaba-something. Lately when I say I use gaba docs assume I mean this pharma-med. They sound very enthused. I assume that means they are havi.g good experiences. Nightmares are half of ptsd. Sleep deprivation psychosis and accidents and substance abuse grow from sleep.aversion due to nightmare. The advantage of the pharmaceutical is...uh...insurance covers it...it may be better. I got rid of nightmares with the cheap powder from the natural grocery.

Sleep meds die not work for me. Neither did sleep hygiene or natural methods to induce.sleep. neither did car?lium or xanax which fill gaba receptors. When the e body is anxious, it will not leep. Drugs may make it loopy, but it will fight to stay awake. It may fight harder, perceiving druggedness to be a threat to survival.

To be drugged into an altered state, or in sleep paralysis while having nightmares or night terrors is an lawful experience. I refuse sleep medicine and strongly warn against for this reason.

There is a reason why so many of us drink abnormally. It isn't to "forget". It's to be unconscious without dreams. Alcohol increases ruminations, bit if you knock it back you can sedate yourself and be awake on time for work. Don't do it. I mention it because I am sick to death of hearing **** from people who don't know PTSD but parrot cliches about drinking to forget and drugging to escape. I am alive today because I could live without work with money to drink a fifth of Jameson every few nights, washing down vitamins to reduce the damage. I wasnt drowning my sorrows. I was avoiding psychosis and suicide. I could have been taking GABA and putting my life back together, but I didn't know.

I hope the pharm med works as well. I know the docs who mentioned it sounded elated.

I'm sorry that I cannot offer some advice, but I can offer some support for you.
Nightmares are the WORST, and I also have narcolepsy (which means I dream all night and never feel rested after a full nights sleep. It also means that I dream when I nap).

but you can know that you are not alone in this, and that you do not have to suffer this on your own

I suggest clonazepam.

For me the language of the dream (nightmare) is primary process. That is, words are expressed symbolically. Height might be frightening and cause fear in the dream, but the sound (hi) may be all the dream work hopes to accomplish where eustress and distress are distinguishable only by their scenarios. The anticipation of the angst crossing the graduation platform and receiving whatever credentials might be represented symbolically in a dream, but how and where? I am new to this, and I am commenting on night terrors of which I really know very little. Still, dreams are inspired of things past and present, things the day before and things the moment of sleep. I don't think I have ever fully understood a dream or night terror outside of the mystery and amazement that accompany them.