the unbelievable

I am a long-time sufferer of c-PTSD and was seeing a female therapist. Since almost all of my abusers were female, she asked if I would be better off seeing a male therapist. At first, I expressed confidence in her. Then, we had a really bad session where she appeared to not want to see me at all and then rudely cut the session short and basically dismissed me. I had a week to think about this treatment as I was away on vacation the following week. When I returned, I left a call confirming my appointment for the next day with a message expressing my disappointment at the last session and saying that maybe, as she had suggested, I would be better off with a male therapist. When I showed up the next day for my session, I was informed that she was in session with another patient. I asked for the manager's name and phone number as I had confirmed the session the day prior. When I arrived home, there was a message from the therapist at the exact time the session was due to start stating that she was willing to work with me as always; she asked that I make an appointment to see her. I was being played! I immediately called her manager and complained that I was being played and was assigned a new therapist, a man, a few weeks later.

The problem is that now I have developed c-PTSD thoughts of being harmed by the female therapist. I will have to report them to my new T next week. He just informed me last session that he will be taking 2 weeks off after the next session. It will be very difficult to get through that period. I don't know if someone will be filling in. It had better not be the previous female T. I will object if that is the case.

Yeah memorial day coming up and summer. Everybody here will be complaining that their ts are off. My t hardly ever takes off. Barely one week a year. And if theres a holiday he wants to make it up later in the week. When i was working i dont think i showed up this regularly.