[Aiuto]

I am DONE!!!The T did a 360 on me and threatened my drivers license because of anxiety etc.I am not feeling like going to a T anymore that was once a life saver but now I have got some clarity I see that she is just as bad as talking to an investigator.
She was always pushing me to go to mental hospital just to get SSRI!!!Not because my mental status!!!I am tired of defending myself to a T for just talking and I never talk about hurting/death myself or hurting anyone else.....I am a single mother and I have a daughter to live for regardless!!!

Anything you say or try to explain to a T could be USED against you even if is a drivers license. Plus I think it is time to move on because the T suppose to Help me in learning behavior and how to handle PTSD, Not send me on my way in a totally PTSD funk for 5 day's after seeing T!

Plus I feel like I have to EXPLAIN EVERYTHING I say!!! so I will not get reported..I might be just paranoid but I have to look out for me and my child!

I have been doing acupuncture for month's now and I read on Psych central news letter that acupuncture is good like talk therapy. I cannot do a T anymore.

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry it's not working for you. Could just be a bad fit with this T. I know they aren't all like that. I've had 4 none of which have acted as harshly as yours. I doubt you are being paranoid, sounds like this therapist is a little over the top, sounds like a good time to terminate.

I hope the acupuncture works. I had it due to shoulder pain and it worked for that, so I don't see why it wouldn't work for mental issues. Good luck with this.

[HealingNSuffering]

Wow she sounds horrible. Worst nightmare of a T! I wouldn't go back either, I never had one that bad but I've quit therapy a few times due to hurt feelings. Best of luck to you in your acupuncture. Like Gayle said, maybe try to find a new therapist, they aren't all that bad.

[Open Eyes]

(((Aiuto))),

I am very sorry you are having such "negative" experiences with your T. However, there "are" others who have experienced that too, I went through that myself so I understand the challenge. Now that I have a "good T" part of my therapy has been about being "validated" in the poor way I was treated by other T's.

I understand this T not working out for you, but don't just give up on therapy, keep looking for another T, sometimes it takes time to find the right "fit". I am so glad I didn't give up because I have a fantastic T that has helped me immensely. There were many times that I got to therapy exhausted from the drive, especially since I had to drive by the psych ward I spent time in that didn't help me, but further traumatized me. But never once did my T threaten my drivers license, he always helped me calm down and gradually I could drive without having "flashbacks".

Please don't give up on therapy, if this T isn't helping, just fire him/her, and search for a new one, there are good T's out there.

((Hugs)))
OE

[(JD)]

I understand how your anxiety is causing you to overreact...catastrophically perhaps? Yes, the idea of not being able to drive concerns me too... but if your anxiety is that bad, do you really want to be on the road?

I surmise that your refusal to go in for the SSRI is what triggered the T to suggest you not be driving? I think it's an excellent idea to go in and be watched when trying those meds...one never knows how a body will react, and if you should have a paradoxical reaction, being in hospital will save harm and possibly your life. It's done often, if the insurance allows...many cannot do this but need to.

You need to manage your anxiety...if T thinks you need medication to help for a while and you refuse it, what choice does T have? You are making the decisions...I hope you will return and pay attention to the concerns of your T, who has only your best interest in mind. The T has no personal benefit of either confining you nor seeing that you are safe by not driving.

[Aiuto]

My anxiety is managed with medication and I have been driving since accident when M.D.s neglected me from car accident resulting in TBI, PCS, PTSD the list goes on...

I went back to her one time after my last post and it was confirmed she is Horrible for me now! She was good for me when I had NOBODY and my mind was racing that I could not even keep a straight conversation WITH ANYONE! My family could not even understand me! So her talk therapy is over for me because she has been triggering my PTSD every time I go since I have shown improvements and have clarity.

She told me to give up on SSDI when I am on my last appeal before I go to ALJ! Why would I give up????? She's been keeping me for 2 sessions the last few times and tries to tell me to go to the mental hospital!!! For SSDI purposes.
I refuse to take ANYMORE TRAUMA from a mental hospital!!!

Before I left her office last time after listening to her BS she said to me "Do you think what I am saying is BS?" I answered YES!! and she said that's what I thought....I am done!!! I learned some coping skills from her and I am thankful for that but I will do my own self talking on my own.

[Open Eyes]

(((Aiuto)))

I am so sorry this therapist has triggered you so much. It doesn't sound like she is a good match for you right now. As hard as it is, try not to let this lead you to not trying to find a different therapist, you may find one that is a better match for you.

You have said that you feel you can at least talk, feel a bit clearer, but I wonder if you might be in a stage where you get angry and inpatient quickly. I went through that period myself for a while, I don't know why that happens with PTSD, it just seems like it has these "confusing stages to it".

I made myself keep looking and I did find a good T that really listens, I mean really listens, stays calm with me and has walked me through some damn challenging stages.

With PTSD it can get "very frustrating" and there are times where the person struggling with it just wants so badly for things to calm down, go smoothly and to actually "get a much needed break" too. Yes, wouldn't it be nice to just be able to get SSDI so you can have a way to "just not worry and kind of feel safe or get some kind of break". Well, unfortunately there is a process one has to go through to get it I guess. Hey, you know you are genuinely struggling, and you don't like to go to the hospital to try to "prove it" either. Hey, I can totally understand that, I sure didn't want to even think of going to the place I had spent time in, it did more harm then good in my case.

It sounds to me like this T is trying to tell you what you need to do to help you get accepted for SSDI. Sometimes, even though we may not like it, we have to do what is required to get what we need.

It sounds like you are "angry" right now. Let yourself calm down some and see if you can see things differently. I have to do that myself sometimes.

(((Hugs)))
OE

[Aiuto]

Thanks Open Eyes I appreciate you greatly!

You said:Hey, you know you are genuinely struggling, and you don't like to go to the hospital to try to "prove it" either. Hey, I can totally understand that, I sure didn't want to even think of going to the place I had spent time in, it did more harm then good in my case.

I am sorry for the experience you had to go threw.I believe and know that in a hospital I would get more trauma and like you it would do me more harm than good. With that being said I do not want anymore trauma in my life. I am beat up from this life and I am actually at a place in my life where I am starting to feel a piece of humble.

I will have to fight with SSDI for years and years because I am young and this country is broke! The system has failed me for when I needed it most. I just needed it until I got better, but I refuse to get worse in the process of getting it and then have to start ALL OVER with my self healing. I have came so far a year ago I could not walk or talk. I am scared to go back. I just am literally stuck between a rock and hell dealing with SSDI and my own good. I know I am not alone

[BLUEDOVE]

Good for you--trust your self. I've had 4 different T.
and one was as loonie as the other. Look at this way:If you were going to buy your first suite for
your home,you would spend time shopping around
to see the different styles etc. So do NOT expect a
match for you first time with a T. Keep the attitude
that you are just 'shopping around' till you find the
one that you gel with--certainly don't let THAT ONE influence your life now,which is what you will be doing if you don't shop around for a decent
one.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE

[Teacake]

I hear you.

There are people who say talk therapy is no good. jeffrey Masson was a Harvard trained psychoanalyst who write a book called Against Therapy. Another analyst James Hillman with journalist write a book called One Hundred Hears of Psychotherapy And The World Is Getting Worse.

Ive have perhPs a dozen therapists, including psychiatrists, clinical psychologists, clinical social workers and whatever. Only the last one was any good. The others were really sick, not just use less and ineffective, but destructive. Some were malicious.

My last therapist is a gem. I love her. I dont how how she does what she does. She is patient and kind. She always affirms me. She sees me as good. We should all he that for each other. Sigh.

Anyway, I have found that GABA and David Bercelis Trauma Releasing Excercises Re the cure for PTSD. GABA is cheap and the exercises are free if you can borrow the book. Of not, its a ten dollar lifelong cure. I also limit caffeine and do other protocolos to protect and nourish my adrenals, treat another condition that can cause mood disorder, and generally submit to being a "healthnik" (except I love tobacco rolled in hemp--organic of
course.)

Medicine is broken, and therapy is mentally ill. Fortunately, humana have evolved to survive trauma. Remember that. Our ancestors had it worse, and they didn't have therapists. They may have had old time religion but all that Trembling before god or dancing and writhing probably Helped them Heal. Today we can refine that practice, more healing and less hysteria.

You can heal.

If you are road raging you need to make that stop. Of its ptsd I swear to you Gaba and berceli will get you easy to drive on the road with. If you have a personality disorder...you should becomes a therapist, lol!

[Aiuto]

I have no other options for survival. I made appointment with T for next week. I cannot do this by myself. I feel that I will give same T another try. I have declined in any recovery since I am not able to take AD meds anymore. Past week's have been very BAD for me. I cannot talk to anyone but myself & Higher Power. Why not go tell this lady all the negative stuff I am living with...that's what she gets paid for. I actually felt hope when I made the appointment. If I could just get out of the bed that would be great!

[(JD)]

Ok I applaud your efforts. You and T need to have an understanding... how PTSD makes all those kinds of intruding questions triggers ... and how her efforts of help (sending to hospital) are more like threats to someone with PTSD. (Sorry she hasn't realized this.)

Make it clear how YOU need therapy to progress, after all, she is YOUR employee and therapy is all about YOU and what you need to progress.

[Open Eyes]

Are you saying that because you don't respond to, or want to take antidepressants a therapist wont help you?

OE

[Aiuto]

I Forgot the ONLY reason I am not trying a new T is because she is the ONLY one that deals with PTSD that takes my insurance. But she is clueless to TBI .... I just need SOMEONE to talk to in person and give me hope back....Even a hug would do me wonders right now. My "friends" showed me that they are not able to be my friend and would act like I'm worthless and a burden.So that is a negative and I stay to my family, daughter, dog, and fish lol.

OE~ AD's do not work for me anymore, they always stop working after awhile while I am still taking the pills. That was how I finally ended up going to inpatient and they had to dismiss me early because they could not help me with TBI & PTSD no MDs in hospital for my needs. My MD does not want to try anymore ADs till they figure out if I have MS.