[mythrider]

For some reason, I think my PTSD is intensly triggered when someone is yelling at or near me. I really don't handle yelling well. Sometimes I have a breakdown while other times I panic. I think it triggers back to my mom yelling at me (which she still does - I learned her way is emotional abuse). I don't know what it is, but then I get these thoughts in my head like "I can't do this anymore..." and start having these very negative thoughts.

For example, yesterday, my boss yelled at me at work. I broke down and started crying at one point. He does know I have PTSD (he's my uncle). I got home and had literally the worst day. Then I started getting the negative thoughts and started bawling half the night - I never cry...

I just don't know how to do it. I feel so overwhelmed. PTSD gets triggered very easily as I'm still technically going through trauma. I can't stand the yelling and I just need to get away from it.

Does anyone else have this happen to them when they are yelled at?

[RubyRae]

I sure do! It just completely sets me off and sends me on a downward spiral.

[mythrider]

Originally Posted by RubyRae

I sure do! It just completely sets me off and sends me on a downward spiral.

I figured it was PTSD related. yesterday was a bad day as well because it was the anniversary of when I reported my assault...

[RubyRae]

I have a rough time with anniversaries,but not as bad as I used to.

This month(December) is hard with an anniversary coming up soon.It seems like the anniversaries are never ending for me.And it's weird how the mind can remember things and I can become symptomatic even if I'm not consciously thinking about it.

[seeker33]

I can't stand yelling either. It's something extremely triggering to me. I also can't stand loud arguments. I seriously don't understand people who love "good arguments" and think in terms "oh, I need to have a good argument, just for fun!". When someone yells at me or if I have an argument I have to try extremely hard not to break down. Then I obsess about it for a long time. Honestly, if someone raises their voice on me, I never forget.

Originally Posted by mythrider

For some reason, I think my PTSD is intensly triggered when someone is yelling at or near me. I really don't handle yelling well. Sometimes I have a breakdown while other times I panic. I think it triggers back to my mom yelling at me (which she still does - I learned her way is emotional abuse). I don't know what it is, but then I get these thoughts in my head like "I can't do this anymore..." and start having these very negative thoughts.

For example, yesterday, my boss yelled at me at work. I broke down and started crying at one point. He does know I have PTSD (he's my uncle). I got home and had literally the worst day. Then I started getting the negative thoughts and started bawling half the night - I never cry...

I just don't know how to do it. I feel so overwhelmed. PTSD gets triggered very easily as I'm still technically going through trauma. I can't stand the yelling and I just need to get away from it.

Does anyone else have this happen to them when they are yelled at?

when someone asks me to write down my triggers for them, yelling comes up- usually about the third or 4th

so yes

[MtnTime2896]

It triggers the hell out of me, but for some reason I crave it. I need the trigger. I need to feel helpless and verbally beat down. I don't know why. I hate this about myself. Either way, it triggers a lot of things, though I don't show it until after everything's done and said. When I'm alone, my mind turns into a war zone.

[mythrider]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

It triggers the hell out of me, but for some reason I crave it. I need the trigger. I need to feel helpless and verbally beat down. I don't know why. I hate this about myself. Either way, it triggers a lot of things, though I don't show it until after everything's done and said. When I'm alone, my mind turns into a war zone.

That is me. The thing is, if it’s from my mother I get scared, but from my partner I feel this way. My partner is very gentle and kind. I guess I’ll admit I’m not as gentle as he is at least with words. I need to work on communication because it frustrates me the most. But at the same time, I’m so used to yelling that it’s all I really know...

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by mythrider

That is me. The thing is, if it’s from my mother I get scared, but from my partner I feel this way. My partner is very gentle and kind. I guess I’ll admit I’m not as gentle as he is at least with words. I need to work on communication because it frustrates me the most. But at the same time, I’m so used to yelling that it’s all I really know...

I get that. Re-wiring your brain from upbringing is the most difficult thing I've had to do. When it comes to arguements, before I can get too into them I take a walk and then get back to talk it out. And if I feel myself wanting to yell, again, I either take another walk or start cleaning. Basically, I put the fight on hold and calm down before I start it back up again.

When it comes to your mom's yelling, I don't have anything to offer. I get the same way with my own mom and dad. I've never been able to get past that.

I hate yelling. At one time, I heard my old supervisor yelling so loud and it gave me emotional flashbacks and I started to shake. I can't stand loud arguing, it happened this morning and it scared me. I really don't like it.