yelling

For some reason, I think my PTSD is intensly triggered when someone is yelling at or near me. I really don't handle yelling well. Sometimes I have a breakdown while other times I panic. I think it triggers back to my mom yelling at me (which she still does - I learned her way is emotional abuse). I don't know what it is, but then I get these thoughts in my head like "I can't do this anymore..." and start having these very negative thoughts.

For example, yesterday, my boss yelled at me at work. I broke down and started crying at one point. He does know I have PTSD (he's my uncle). I got home and had literally the worst day. Then I started getting the negative thoughts and started bawling half the night - I never cry...

I just don't know how to do it. I feel so overwhelmed. PTSD gets triggered very easily as I'm still technically going through trauma. I can't stand the yelling and I just need to get away from it.

Does anyone else have this happen to them when they are yelled at?

I sure do! It just completely sets me off and sends me on a downward spiral.

I figured it was PTSD related. yesterday was a bad day as well because it was the anniversary of when I reported my assault...

I have a rough time with anniversaries,but not as bad as I used to.

This month(December) is hard with an anniversary coming up soon.It seems like the anniversaries are never ending for me.And it's weird how the mind can remember things and I can become symptomatic even if I'm not consciously thinking about it.

I can't stand yelling either. It's something extremely triggering to me. I also can't stand loud arguments. I seriously don't understand people who love "good arguments" and think in terms "oh, I need to have a good argument, just for fun!". When someone yells at me or if I have an argument I have to try extremely hard not to break down. Then I obsess about it for a long time. Honestly, if someone raises their voice on me, I never forget.

when someone asks me to write down my triggers for them, yelling comes up- usually about the third or 4th

so yes

It triggers the hell out of me, but for some reason I crave it. I need the trigger. I need to feel helpless and verbally beat down. I don't know why. I hate this about myself. Either way, it triggers a lot of things, though I don't show it until after everything's done and said. When I'm alone, my mind turns into a war zone.

That is me. The thing is, if it’s from my mother I get scared, but from my partner I feel this way. My partner is very gentle and kind. I guess I’ll admit I’m not as gentle as he is at least with words. I need to work on communication because it frustrates me the most. But at the same time, I’m so used to yelling that it’s all I really know...

I get that. Re-wiring your brain from upbringing is the most difficult thing I've had to do. When it comes to arguements, before I can get too into them I take a walk and then get back to talk it out. And if I feel myself wanting to yell, again, I either take another walk or start cleaning. Basically, I put the fight on hold and calm down before I start it back up again.

When it comes to your mom's yelling, I don't have anything to offer. I get the same way with my own mom and dad. I've never been able to get past that.

I hate yelling. At one time, I heard my old supervisor yelling so loud and it gave me emotional flashbacks and I started to shake. I can't stand loud arguing, it happened this morning and it scared me. I really don't like it.