I feel impossible!

Barefoot I can do and it is my preference.

We used to have a mud hill that we would play on when it rained. Those were some good times.

Barefoot works fine. That is how I do yoga. It helps ground the energy.

Fine. I'm coming down from opiated horror freeze through anger. Anger never felt so good! I want to fight and have no one to play with. Maybe tonight I will actually do the big allergy cleaning ive needed to do since March.

If I cant clean through the night and get to the early quaker meeting for worship I will go to ER. Because aint no way I'm going to sleep home alone on this psyche.

There are some nights I wouldn't go to sleep without some music to accompany me to sleep. My only concern about staying up all night is that sleeplessness tends to exaggerate the psychic distortions or illusions.
Do you really go to quaker meeting? Don't they practice silence? Listening is a good way to hear what we are usually too busy to hear.
The eyelids are going on strike - they're shutting down.
Hope you find a good way to get through the night.

speaking from my own experience~ I sure am glad to hear you have no one to play with.

Maybe you can take a nap between the cleaning and worshipping. When I feel like playing~ it kicks my *** and misery loves company so I hope it wears you out too. Lack of sleep will not help you.

I was a novice marital artist before my world ended. I like to play rough, so long as Its controlled. Nothing would make me happier right now than to have someone who couldnt get hurt to play with.

I uses to get drunk and write out my dojo stories to self soothe. Isn't that sad?

I miss the men I trained with. They saved my life. I'm here because my teacher wouldn't let them patronise me. Sometimes we stew over what we did wrong that caused the world to end. Sometimes we stew over the lucky circumstances that let us survive.

Oh~ sorry. I didn't consider rational play.

I don't think I'd call that sad. I don't think drinking is the wisest thing to do but I've done worse. they say writing helps many self soothe but it makes me a mess.

Writing made me a mess too.