[ridicknotme]

it was festival here in india...a big one...i was with my frnds enjoyng the day...we were just roming around...one of us decided to take a swim in pond near by...few agreed few didnt...i was out too...suddenly one of the guy inside the pond started to drawn...we all thought he was kiddng to scare us....then i realised he wasnt...i was nt much of a swimmer but i jumped right in anyway...he also jumped in to save him...the guy that was drawning was out...but he was no where....we searched for him every where...i felt his hand....he was all inside the mud...we called 4 help...i was so terrified....the divers came...they took him out but it was too late...he died of a heart attack...now i feel nothing...i dnt feel love or anything else...life is blank...empty..

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It must have been horrific. Please remember that NONE of it was your fault, you are not to blame and you are suffering from an illness - Ptsd - you are not going crazy and you need and deserve support.

I would recommend seeing a therapist.

I am so sorry. What a terrible thing to go through.

[ridicknotme]

thanx 4 the support...

how are you doing today?

[ridicknotme]

Originally Posted by 8888an8888

how are you doing today?

ok i guss...feeling stressed...little anger and alone too...how abt u?

[cakeladie]

I am so sorry

I have a swimming pool and we are very careful when we host a party or have friends over. At my daughters birthday party she had friends over. I had adults stationed by the deep end so that kids who did not know how to swim would be stopped and not tempted to go in the deep in. I even had it roped off. The party was ending and people were going home. I sat down next to my cousin and her friend said is that kid drowning? I looked and the child was going down for the second time. My friend jumped in the kids mother came out of the house and jumped into the pool. She could not swim. So now we had 2 people in the deep end who could not swim. We got the kid out and the mom but that was the last time we had anyone over for a long time. I did not sleep for 3 weeks.

The up side is that the mom and her child went and took swimming lessons along with a couple of other kids that could not swim. See my husband and I like the water and we made sure that our kids knew how to swim. My daughter at age 3 was swimming the length of the pool and diving to the bottom of the deep end.

There was nothing you could have done. Like I said we were very lucky and I took extra care when having a party so that no one would get hurt and that child was about 3 yards away from and I did not hear a peep.

Go easy on yourself. Take one day at a time.

[ridicknotme]

thanx for sharing....
i could have saved the first guy without the help of any1..i was too stupid not to look around...i just jumped in....there was long stick lying near by which i noticed later....if just would have seen it...
he was like my best and only good friend/...

[ridicknotme]

u knw just few days back before the incident we had a chat abt our lives...he was more of spiritual guy...i told him to have more fun, meet some girl and so...he said to me dnt worry i hsve plenty of tym 4 that...i m gonna live like at least 60 more years/../

[cakeladie]

Who's to know if you could have saved him? You say he was a spiritual guy then who's to say it was not his time to go?

But there is a lesson you can learn from this. Live each day to the fullest and don't take things for-granted. You just never know when it's your time. Also you say he died from a heart attack what could you have done? Nothing. But if you want to do something positive make sure that the people you love and care about know how to swim. Do something in honor of him. But I can tell you he would not like you feeling responsible.

Take one day at a time.

[ridicknotme]

i did that...i lived my life untill i was hit by a mount everst of trauma...which made totally unemotional towards everything...