I get paranoia/psychosis at night a lot, based on fears that have been unfounded for some time. Last night was a bad one. I was hearing sounds that weren't real and interpreting real sounds as threats. Like the wind. Every time it shook my place or made sounds I'd think someone was there to murder me. I hate it so much. I hardly slept all night and now i'm wasted the next day. If I'm in bed and it all starts up I get up and go to the lounge room, turn on the TV, put the sound low and just lay there with the TV burbling away on low. It soothes me, even if I don't go off to sleep. If I do go to sleep and wake up later, often I'm sleepy enough, wound down enough, to go back to bed and go back to sleep. Not much success last night! I'm Bipolar as well as CPTSD with psychotic features so my mood fluctuations affect all this too.

[Ruftin]

(((discover))) I used to have the same experiences. They were so bad I'd get anxious when I knew bed time was coming. Somewhere along the line with numerous medication changes those fears vanished. I'm Bipolar as well. I also keep a fan on in my room to help sooth me to sleep along with a sleeping pill and an antianxiety. I hope this helps you in some small way. You are experiencing symptoms of the illness. Meds or meditation may help. I don't know your preference. Best wishes.

Thanks Ruftin. I wish I could have sleeping pills, but I can't as I'm an alcoholic. I'm always up front right away with psychiatrists about what meds I should be taking and that's part of why I've been sober for 16 years. Ironic about meditation and also , mindfulness - today I had a group that I've been going to for trauma recovery (it's really good and includes mindfuless) and I dragged myself there, which was a major achievement considering my night, but I had to leave as I became overwhelmed and I can't always push myself through tiredness as I get a major episode (again). So I left and came home and slept in the afternoon which will undoubtedly lead me to having another late night. Sigh.......

[Ruftin]

Hello discover. I just noticed you're from Australia. Good evening. It's morning for me. I'm sorry the alcoholism has come between you and med options. I'm sorry you weren't able to complete your group therapy. You got farther that I would have. I can't even bring myself to attend therapy at the moment. You are in my prayers!!!!