Presently feeling like I'm being s. assaulted again while my brain is running in a memory loop from when I was tortured.. when will this end??

[Open Eyes]

Oh Breadfish, I am sorry you are struggling. I get these difficult cycles myself so I know how it is. I find that when I get overwhelmed with something I have these cycles. I keep reminding myself to be patient and I try to distract myself until it passes. I look for things that help me come back into the now. I even try to find something on TV that is entertaining in a good way.

It helps to keep reminding yourself that whatever it was you did survive it and you are safe now and you have learned to take better care of yourself. I am sorry that you experienced that in your life, you did not deserve it.

[Jakewell]

Breadfish,
I'm cheering for you on this lap. I'm waving your banner watching you run through the mud and the rain. Its a courageous run.

Thanks.

[mugwort2]

Originally Posted by Breadfish

Thanks.

I was only recently diagnosed by a pdoc with PTSD It was 11/10/15 That does not mean my PTSD is recent. Looking back it stems from the emotional , verbal abuse by my uppers addicted mom. Plus in my 20s a gang rape at knife point and an abusive man who lived with me Late 20s
I feel sorry for you. I am new to what PTSD means Wish I could be more helpful. I do want to support you in your PTSD struggles