[Shaly78]

Anxiety breathing attacks followed by gaging orally slight nauseous almost every night the last 2 weeks. The getting on the floor is symbolized by what do you think. I'm not sure, but I know it help simmers me down. The breathing techniques trigger and the progressive muscle relaxation doesn't seem to help. In fact, my eating between meals have decreased say like 6 - 8 hours at the height before partaking another meal. I have to get this out because therapy doesn't start again until Jan 22nd 2016. It is becoming bothersome making me think about the massive panic I had Nov 12 2015 you know like a abuser (PTSD) walking on egg shells. It's almost like stop and take me out, kill me if you really going to don't punt fake about it. It has gotten me suicidal, thought only.

[Open Eyes]

Hi newday, if sitting down and writing things out here help you then please do so. I am sorry you had a massive panic attack, I have experienced that and it's so scarey. Once I learned what it meant and to be patient until it passes, because they do pass, I have not experienced one that severe since.

It seems that night is the worst time for you, are you sleeping ok?

[CaptainChaos79]

My PTSD was cause by my first husband abusing my sexually and part of that was related to oral sex. I don't know what to tell you to do to get past this. I know that through the understanding and love of my current partner that I was able to work through my issues regarding oral and I comfortable with him (and only him) in respect to that part of my sexuality...and many other aspects as well. For some people that is what it takes is ONE person who is patient and understanding. I do know this...no abuser or abusers are worth your life. There are worthy partners out there who deserve you.