[wessam]

Hi , My name is Wessam from Iraq ..,

In fact this the first time I write here and would like you to see my story , I regret that I did not write from earlier time ..

Any how , I was told that I am not doing well mentally in past time , in fact several years , since the civil war here in Iraq ,, there was a lot of security issues threatening a man , a peaceful one , inside the combating groups ,,,

It lasted 4 years until I began to realize that saying " you are not doing well mentally " or " we are afraid that you are getting worse " ,,
A deep religious reading lasted about 1 year and most of surrounding friends told me and else more ..that was in 2007 bottle neck personal and over all security situation details are bombing cars . fighting groups , military showing inside civil communities in cities as you know the situation ...
Another important or very important point that I was kidnapped for revenge from groups and was subject to torture and had a gun in my head with a peace of clothes on eyes ...

That was a long term suffering with of course financial issues and debts that caused us to be on rent accompanying these period from 2007-2013

By beginning of 2013 the the attack accelerated and escalated with bombing cars killing more and more people causing me feel fear and fear with abnormal unstable mental health situation ...stress is my mate

By the end of 2013 I tried a travel to Europe ,, in the day of travelling I felt very down and afraid of unknown thing ...that was a surprise to the German embassy ,,, cancelled trip ( i was thinking to stay there , but was told of a more than one friend that I will be put just in camps for a long time because I entered formally , an enlarged anxiety poped up ...

Any how , by mid of 2014 a nightmare came reminded me of the kidnapping story triggered by a low level person saying that .. when the story spoken in front of him that if he had this chance he would have do the same ,, he was kidding ,, but i was bothered too much and became feeling fear and flee to Turkey UN to register , stayed there 6 months and then back again to home country with weight loss and fibromalagia back pain ( The United nation mission has open time ( 2 or 3 years or unknown time ) to relocate refugees and this needs a financial coverage again another type of fear emerged , but frankly I did not spend all of my money )

I need time to heal from my psychic after that ...

Note : we have in family sister and grand mother who are diagnosed with schizophrenia , grand mother was on a severer situation ,,, sister was diagnosed with voice hallucination and accompanying low state of mood and isolation symptoms poped up more clearly - positive ones the voice halluc. after civil war accident ( a period of stress )

I am sorry for the detailed story , but all these are facts ..

Wow, it sounds like you've had a hellish few years. Do you have a therapist to help you recover?

[wessam]

Thank you dear for your reply ..
I will try ..its the years of war .. civil war
I am trying to leave homeland but when i decided to do so stress emerged ...and worry about father and family .. a hard equation
Now I feel stronger some how but afraid the the future hides something and then relapse is possible .. long term exposure and unstability in both security and financial situation ...

[wessam]

Thank you dear for your reply ..
Until now no I have no therapist !!
But still have peroids of relapse past times
Now I feel some how stable but fluctuating in fact ... its the worry of future and how to alternate my place ..

[wessam]

Hi dear
Yesterday I have seen a therapist who prescribed the following
1-Risperdal 2 mg
2-Fluoxetine 20 mg
3- Xanax (on need only )

Now I began to take the meds , in order to prevent relapses if any

Thanks for your care ,

[Shaly78]

Wessam,

You sound like someone I knew a little bit about! He claimed to have had PTSD from war, I believed him in fact we had good conversation I ended up disclosing to him about me having PTSD /DID, he had the nerve to say well you don't know the number of people in me anyway it was a little jealousy, trying to relate too much, or maybe he didn't want to tell me the full story. You don't have people if you only have PTSD. I just wanted to say though, don't let your genealogy make you claim schizophrenia. I guess you have your reason for stating this in the post. Deal with PTSD which is very serious anxiety disorder. Flashbacks I guess you have the two mixed up aren't the same as halluinications follow the docs orders because that is how you explained it.

[wessam]

Thanks dear Shaly for your care ...

Well I referred to my Doctor because of having abnormal heart beat with med called Risperdal 2 mg ( doctor prescribed it for abnormal fear comes from paranoia as he thought and may be isolation) and postponed the drug for later time ,, in fact I have had these abnormalities of freak behaviors but in past , told the doctor about it so as to manifest medical history for him if any relation or prevent relapses just and made him see all possibilities if any!

Of my readings yesterday that low mental state and other symptoms may disappear normally in a period of ones life , that means it is not necessarily reoccur...

Now I am on Flouxetine 2 times a day and will follow doctor guiding ..
I understand what wrote concerning PTSD plus flashbacks does not mean hallucinations
Regards