new adopted dog having trauma making my PTSD worsen?

I adopted a new puppy from the shelter about three months ago, and having him at the house has been challenging to deal with.

but its not necessarily terrible. We did not notice that this poor guy has PTSD of his own until we tried to do certain things, give him a bath outside with hose, groom excess hair off with a dog brush.
he would get really defensive and starting trying to bite and growl.

the worst so far is when we clipped his nails, since he was bond and determined to bite our next door neighbour that was helping us do it. As well as since I am technically going to school for veterinary technician training. I helped and restrained him so we could get the task done.

it stressed him so bad we decide to hold of on doing his front lol. But he just lost it when I restrained him he was really loud screaming and crying growling showing all his teeth and biting but I had in a good hold with his head away from me and not in a position that he could hurt himself.

but afterwards I was shaking like a leaf and feeling like I would just collapse on the ground.

I have no idea if its possible but it feels like cause I am around him and he can get triggered easily and quickly it feels as though that is rubbing off on me some how.

I know that being around other people that have been abused can effect you but can be around an abused dog do the same?

I'd think so, PTSD is PTSD no matter the species. The first months with my dog (who suffers from somewhat similar issues) were very hard on my own condition. As we've grown to know each other and get very comfortable around each other, not only did the worsening of my symptoms subside, but he actually makes me feel a lot better most of the time. There are still times I deal with severe anger and put him outside while I clean and get it out. Then I let him back in and he slows my heart-rate and helps with my panic attack (which always happens after dealing with the rage). So, in my experience it gets better after enough time. I don't think it's that way for everyone, though. You need to give it enough time to make your own judgement.

I wish I could have a dog but my cats would hate it, I want one so badly though it would help with my ptsd and stress and could be my little buddy

I wonder if pushing him despite his distress is what's effecting you more than the fact that he is easily triggered...
One of my dogs seems to have developed severe anxiety symptoms the last few years. On the one hand, I want to show her that the things she is fearing are not going to hurt her, but I can also really relate to her extreme anxiety. One therapist pointed out that I was pushing her past her limits in ways that would make me a huge mess if someone did the same to me (even if I trusted them). I started changing the way I interact with her around the anxiety. Unless absolutely necessary, I only push her as far as she is willing to go with things. I try to take time to reassure her when she starts to panic (nails are something she reacts badly to, always had)...

Now I'm able to find comfort in having someone around who understands my own symptoms, even if she can't verbally express it. It helps keep me in check to a degree also - I try to minimize my anxiety around her and use better coping skills so I don't cause her any extra stress (her anxiety started shortly after I attempted suicide and the dogs were around. She used to only panic if things reminded her of that event, but in recent years, the anxiety has grown to be triggered by a lot of different things).

The stress your dog feels can absolutely rub off on you. Not just because you feel bad for him, but because you are trying to be responsible for him and you can't control his reactions. There are two things I would suggest. 1) see a canine behavioralist to help you work on his anxiety issues. or 2) Find him a new home and find yourself a calmer dog. It's really okay if you and this dog don't fit together. I'm not suggesting you abandon him, but maybe you aren't equipped to give him the comfort he needs right now if you are dealing with anxiety yourself?

Good luck.

Seesaw

no him and I way to bounded and I am not going to do something like that. It would not seem like abandoning to you but to me it would.

cause when we picked him up from the humane society he had already been taken back once before. And I am not ok with doing that to him.

since he is a bigger dog he does do better with lots of walks and exercise I have noticed that.
helps a lot for him.

I am also looking into buying some holistic herbs for him, and seeing if that helps he is not nervous all the time just around certain things.