[Jennifer1084]

Well today I went and talked with an attorney. She actually was rather sincere and nice. I think it helped that she was female also. Well and she told me that she had gone through similar experiences as well. So that helped me to know that she is probably real about the seriousness of this. Well she said there is probably some problems with the case. She said that for one, he gets SSI so I probably will not get anything out of it, which I'm not even hoping for money anyway. Two, there is no way to prove that this was actually forced and not concentual. But the big kick of all, it's because I have mental illness. She also wants me to even consider if I want to pursue this anymore. She though understood why I would want to. She said that for a fact I would have to testify, so that would be hard, though I had thought about that before. Actually I thought I had to when it was a criminal case. But since nothing was really done criminally, I am taking it civally. I really need this I think, for me and for my own healing, as well as Jenny's and all th rest of us. Well then also she said there is a high probability that this case would be made public and there would be alot fo publicity. She is worried about that for me. It was actually already brough to my attention before I decided I would take this further. Though I think I need to do everything I can for myself and know that I did all that I could. Well what is your opinion?

Jennifer

((( Jennifer )))

Have you seen a rape councelor? What is your T and P-doc saying? They should have just as big of a part (if not bigger) getting you through this then a lawyer.

But, the lawyer is right when she says,

Well then also she said there is a high probability that this case would be made public and there would be alot fo publicity.

A lot of publicity is one thing, but a witch hunt is another. You need to be prepared for the fall out and the chance that after all is said and done, the case is thrown out.

This is from your other post. What this idiot in the ER did is nothing compared to what the defense will do.
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"Well I had yet another bad ER visit. I have had this same PA a few times and well he has personal issues with me. This time was the worst he has treated me. He lied in my ER report several times. First he started off by saying I had bizzarre behavior and then I was delusional."

And this

"But then the in the report it went on to say that my injury I got 12 weeks ago was in fact self inflicted. Which is completely not true, because I was assaulted 12 weeks ago and had to have surgery for it and was bleeding really bad. He then went on that I had allegedly reported that I was raped."

"But I know that is not true. But still the feeling is very strong and well it is not a good feeling to have. It is just difficult to have someone, especially a professional, that you are the one who hurt yourself and that you are just lying about what happened. I am very upset over this whole incident"
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These things will most definetly come into that court room.

Your mental state as well as your diagnosis will too.

Only you can make this decision Jennifer, and I'm sorry it's such a tough one.

[Jennifer1084]

Thank you Petunia. I just feel as if I really need to do this for myself really. I am just feeling like I need to pursue this as much as I can for me to feel like I did all that I could. I think is important for me because well I never have done anything about anything that has happened to me before, even little things. So now I see this as a situation to help me grow. See I ask alot of questions and for people's opinions because I have difficulty making decisions on my own. Though this is something I need to learn. Thank you again and I wasn't trying to ignore what you said about the publicity stuff. I know that they will attack me and my diagnosis on the stand. But yet again, who's to know if it will be worth or not, I just see this as being important for my healing. I don't even know for sure that a lawyer will take the case. She just wanted me to think on if I wanted to pursue this or not. I don't know, I have a few other options as well. But this seems like the first option and the other are plans B and C.

Thanks for replying and I am going to try to not post about anything anymore, as I believe it bothers some people.

Jennifer

It sounds like you have made your decision. (See? You can do it.)

I wish you all the luck with this and we're here to listen or vent when you need to.

[Gracey]

Jennifer. . .I have a question. If you are DID (which I believe you implied earlier) isn't it possible that perhaps you might have inflicted your injuries that were so harshly judged in the other thread?

And Pet is right. .what you dealt with in the ER will be NOTHING compared to the defense attorney. Before you engage in a civil trial, decide whether or not you can handle a possible negative outcome.

[Jennifer1084]

Yes, it is possible to an extent. But I do remember the doctor who did my surgery saying that there is no way that I could have done this to myself. At least this is what I remember. But see if I did it or one of my parts, it does not explain why my whole system is so shut down right now. I have hardly switched at all, which before it was about a 50% of the day thing. But now it's maybe once a week. Though most people say it's a good thing, I feel that it isn't, I feel things building inside. I feel the chaos from this inside. Also what little I have heard from my parts, what I get from them is that they are either very traumatized or very very angry. But I am not saying that what you brought up is false, I am just giving my opinion. I know I need to think about everything that may be brought up with this case, if there is even going to be a case. I don't know yet. Well thank you for your response and I appreciate your honesty. It does help me think about everything a little at least. Well I've decided, what I said in my last post was wrong of me to say, at least wrong to myself. Well I shouldn't say I'm going to not post anything else about this because this is one way I am working on getting through all of this. Why take away support that I need? Well anyway, thanks again.

Jennifer

[wickedwings]

jen....i feel for you. i was raped by my dad and he did other things, too. i understand. there is one other option you can think about. i'm not into preaching and will not preach because everyone has their own beliefs. i want you to know about it because it did help me in a huge way. when a perpetuator gets away with a crime, he never gets away from the higher power, your god, if you believe in one. i will say no more, since i do not want to create a debate. i hope this helps you.