[Jennifer1084]

Well as some of you may know from my postings, I have been having a pretty rough time. I am trying my hardest to get past the assault from May but it is very difficult and I am unsure what to do. I have been doing everything I can think of and I seem to be getting no where. But that's not my biggest problem. The way I understand it is that when someone has been victimized it is necessary to be supported. But the way things are going in my life, no one is supporting me. My family are doing nothing but dragging me down. I mean my own mother is telling me that the assault was all my fault. I also live in an assisted living facility because of my emotional and psychological problems. But the staff there are not willing to even talk to me for 10 minutes when I need it. so I am wondering why I am even here. I came here to get support and the staff are just not there at all. Actually many of them have just been plain rude to me. Like today I asked to talk to someone earlier in the day and she told me no and that I just shouldn't think about it. How can one not think about what happened with something like this? Later the same person, after I had talked to the police to ask questions and got upset, said I just needed to put this all behind me and don't let it bother me. Obviously I dont' believe she has been through anything like this, and anyway, she just doesn't understand we all react differently to different things. She also told me that I needed to do this on my own and that support was not going to help me. Which I know that victims of assault and abuse need support the most. I am just feeling very alone in this and I am feeling very hurt right now. I just don't know what to do. I am going to keep fighting though, it's what I need to do.

Jennifer

[(JD)]

You need professional help. Not because of anything you've done or not done, but because of the nature of the beast of trauma. Other people just don't "get it." Nor will they, even if a professional explains it to them. To continue to expect them to support you in the ways you need (and I think you aren't even sure of how you need yet..) is a frustrating and ceaseless task.

If you truly have PTSD you will not get "over" it on your own... imo. And, if you have been so traumatized and not receiving help... you could very well worsen with time, also.

Please seek professional help. Get the unconditional support you need and deserve. Quit expecting the "ignorant" to come to your aid...they don't have a clue, hon.

((((hugs))) Go get help.

[MyBestKids2]

I am so happy you are determined to keep trying. If its ok, I will offer you my support and *gentle hugs*



Dee

[selfy]

i am happy to offer my ear at any time of day... some ppl just have not got a clue. dont waste time on them. i am happy that u have the determination to keep asking for support. and dont forget that i am one who will give it whenever nessacary. take care
self

Safe hugs sweetie. Yes you do need support and sometimes it is so hard to find, especially the correct support. keep talking here and posting and even journaling yourself. I wish you luck and you have us here too. Take care and keep on fighting, you sound a strong and lovely person, good luck.

jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[finestitcher]

Jennifer ...sky is sooo correct. You can't get over what happened to you without professional help. I have been in and out of therapy the majority of my life...since age 15...now 58 yrs old. My current theapist is Board Certified Expert in Traumatic Stress and he has made a world of differenc in my personal world. This not to say that, 1) you need a BCETS, or 2) that there not many professional therapist in the world who can do just as great a job.

DO keep coming in there for for sharing and talking things out, and for words of support and comfort you will surely find among the members of this forum.



p.s. This is my first ever post in these forums. Introduction to be written in a new thread.

(((jennifer)))

I am glad you posted. Yes, what has been said about therapy is a very good suggestion. I too have been in therapy. I am listening and hear you. You are important and what you have to say is important. You deserve to be heard and validated. It was not your fault dear. I hope you will keep posting and sharing. We do care and are here for you. Do get help for yourself, you deserve it. Take care dear and know you are heard. Love to you.

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