i had a very bad flashback a couple of days ago and it's left me reeling. I have been hyper and putting it out of my mind but it keeps coming back to haunt me. I never remembered this ever before. I was going through a hard time as a child and at the age of 9/10 started to mess myself, i would get all knotted up in the stomach and accidents happened, my mother made me wash in front of my abuser, all my clothes were taken off whilst i did this. The flashback made me so ashamed, I have those feelings now, ashamed, humiliated. I haven't spoken to my t about it yet, don't know if i can. did this kind of thing hapen too anybody else here? i had to spit this out to ease my mind a bit, sorry if I have gone too far

metime

[Soidhonia]

Hello (((METIME))). I am sorry you are struggling at this time with Flashbacks. By all means you should talk to your therapist about what is happening to you at this time,because you are hurting and suffering from your past. Post Traumatic Disorder is very traumatizing and you need to address the emotions and feelings you are having at this time to help you get some relief and a somewhat closure to your past since it still is bothering you at this time. Thre is nothing to feel ashamed of many people suffer from stomach and other problems that have stress as a younger child. You probably felt scared about the stomach problems, and didnt understand what was happening and that just compounded the problem,and I understand feeing humiliated and violated in how you were treated afterwards. I think you would benefit greatly from telling your therapist how you are feeling at this time and what you are going through at this time, because this is still affecting your life. Take care (((METIME))) Soidhonia