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So a few months back, I was doing research searching out my ex-stepfather molesters whereabouts. I've been tracking him for years.
Now imagine my surprise when during my last stalking session I found that his address had changed - - to my mother's address. She's back with him, the man who molested me as a teenager. I was speechless. It's not like she doesn't know. I have written letter after letter, only to reject it and start over again. I want to make it very clear that I will not ever see nor speak to my mother again. She doesn't love me and she doesn't respect me, obviously. I won't be attending her funeral. I want nothing more to do with her. I you were to write such a letter, what would you say? I know one thing, she didn't just burn the bridge, she stood by laughing as it fell into the water below. __________________ You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. ~ Robin Williams Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? ~ Pink Floyd |
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Maybe you could write the letter , bless it and then burn it ? It's something I've done with my T. It's so painful I know , we don't get closure from these people sadly no matter how we want it. What's going to make you feel better is what's important. Hugs if wanted.
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Werewoman, clearly your mother is just too STUPID to have the capacity to be receptive to anything you could, or even I could write to her if I myself tried to make the effort. Honestly, there are human beings in this world that are just plain STUPID, the kind of STUPID that just can't be fixed.
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As a survivor, I won't take advantage of their stupidity, but I bet there are people who do. __________________ You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. ~ Robin Williams Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? ~ Pink Floyd |
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Writing a letter is good for "you" Werewoman, it's a way for you to write down how another person's behavior hurt "you". The one who needs the healing is "you" and often the people that hurt us in some way simply are unable to be receptive to "our" hurts otherwise they would have never have hurt or betrayed us to begin with.
I could NEVER ignore it if someone hurt my daughter in the manor you have shared, and I certainly could NEVER choose this man over my daughter like your mother has. I am very sorry you have this kind of mother, you certainly did nothing to deserve that and I can't blame you for being angry. Given what your mother did, I don't think she is capable of caring no matter what is said to her. ((Caring Hugs))) OE |
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I just keep repeating,"don't exist,don't exist",any time they are in
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Maybe after I send it, I'll post it here.
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I am very sorry for the pain this is causing.
WTF? Why on earth would your mother get involved with him again? How insulting toward you! Please take very good care of yourself. WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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Well, I told my siblings about it. My younger brother is in complete denial, which I expected, but I still felt I should tell him anyway.
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Here's the letter I sent them, in case anyone is interested.
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(((((( HUGS ))))))
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This is my younger brother's response when I told him they were together again...
"what you are saying is absurd! I am quite sure that is just incorrect information put on the internet by mistake, there is incorrect information every where about every body. I just had to correct about 5 different things on my credit report, one was my son was listed as an AKA. Also they had a phone number listed that I never had! This sort of thing is rampant in information on the internet! Mom was at my house for three weeks selling her house in Bedford, she brought her cat so the cat would not be alone at her house in Colorado Springs. It is just bogus information that you saw on the internet and nothing else! They were married at one time so it is just bad info!" It's about what I expected, actually. My older brother was not surprised but like me won't have anything to do with her anymore. __________________ You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. ~ Robin Williams Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? ~ Pink Floyd |
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Dear Werewoman.
There is a very simple reason why you are labouring in constructing an appropriate letter to your Mother....The reason is that there simply are no words to convey that kind of disgust. Please be the human voice of reason here...please don't write anything. Please don't allow those creatures anything more of yourself. They took your innocence and your trust, don't give them insight into what's in your mind...That belongs to you and you alone. My best advice on this is for you to galvanise your resolve, and stride forward into the world...a world where you get to choose how to become the hero of your own life story. Werewoman, I wish you joy and peace and all the very best moving into a brighter future. __________________ The devil whispered in my ear, "You cannot withstand the storm." I whispered back, "I am the storm." |
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Here's what I'm thinking. I believe that your mother is self-destructive because she hates herself. I believe that she hates herself because she is profoundly emotionally sick and doesn't want to make the necessary changes to be healthier - in part because she doesn't feel that she deserves a better life.
Unfortunately, you have been caught in the web of her sickness. If I were you, I would work on taking the focus off her - and off the jerk who molested you - and truly focus on your own well-being. It's not easy, but I suggest that you stop giving those people any attention. If they "haunt" you, or if you dream about them, see it solely as a path to bringing you back to yourself. To put it simply: let go of that old story and create a new, healthier story. Best of luck to you. Last edited by *Laurie*; Jul 31, 2018 at 11:30 AM.. |
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The letter was really to give a voice to my 'others'. They are not alters in the true sense, but they have their own emotions and they are, frankly, very irrational. I never let them 'out' because of this, but they needed to have their say and I'm glad I gave it to them. As to any fallout, there won't be any. I didn't tell anyone I sent it (except for the hundreds of people who have read this ), but if anyone brings it up, like if she tells my brother, I will make it very clear that no one is to speak of her in my presence again. If they do, I will simply leave, hang up, delete...whatever. You get the idea. For what it's worth, I've been married for 27 years, most of them good or great , I wrote my own story with a happy ending. WW __________________ You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. ~ Robin Williams Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? ~ Pink Floyd |
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Congratulations on your marriage! 27 years is truly a success. And I apologize sincerely if I came off as condescending. I didn't intend to be. I'm an intense person and it seems that intensity comes out strangely sometimes. I'm genuinely sorry about your mom. I grew up with a very challenging mother who was, at times, abusive to me. Even worse was how horribly she treated herself. Sad, sad.
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Yeah, she's not kind to herself at all either. __________________ You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. ~ Robin Williams Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? ~ Pink Floyd |
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I don't have your anger. I wish I did.
My mother still lives with my father. She never left him. I wish I could find anger within me. All I have is self hatred. |
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So did I at one time. The anger comes after you realize none of it is your fault. When you stop blaming yourself, you'll stop hating yourself. Or at least that's the way it went with me.
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