[S.Courage]

Ever since my traumatic experience years ago, I've been on high alert. I'm always watching people's every move to make sure they won't harm me even though they never present any kind of danger to anyone else. I can't go to movie theaters anymore, something I used to love to do. And I can't read books because I'm unable to concentrate with my brain racing all the time, when once upon a time I used to stay up all night reading. I'm always terrified that something bad is going to happen, like an imminent doom. Someone's going to hurt me, someone's out to get me, or some harm will come to me not caused by a person, like a fire. My trauma was caused by feelings of helplessness and no control. And my constant fears make me relive these feelings relentlessly. Also I'm always so tired lately. All I want to do is sleep. I have no energy anymore. This is draining me and I don't know how to regain control. I'm currently seeing a therapist and on medication but I still am constantly scared and on guard. I no longer live anymore but merely exist it seems like. I don't know what to do

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you are struggling with all of this fear. I have a good dosage of it as well. But I'm old & pretty reclusive. So I manage. I wish I had some creative suggestions to offer you. But, really, working through this with the help of a skilled trauma therapist is probably the answer. I presume you are perhaps doing that. Such activities as journaling & meditation can help too. But I suspect therapy is going to be the key to recovering from what you experienced. I send hugs your way with the hope that can happen for you... soon.

I do hope something helps you, S Courage