I can't talk

This is the second hardest forum for me to post/respond in. The first is SoA for obvious reasons.

I come here and I read, very rarely do I leave any trace that I've been around. I read something that relates to me and I say, "I don't talk about that" and I leave the forum entirely. Once I leave, I don't come back around for a while. Once I come back, the same story repeats itself. Kinda sucks since, out of every forum, I need to talk here the most for a couple reasons. One, where else can I talk about this stuff? Two, who else but those here will understand what I have to say?

Still, I can't bring myself to speak. I can't bring myself to admit things I'm sure happened, and I deny things that have no witnesses because denial is easier. I feel that statement is admission that I know it's real. But I don't. I don't know if it's real. I don't know if anything at all in my life is real. I'm so ****ing confused all of the time. I just want some clarity. More than that, I want my mind to know peace. I just want to know peace.

All I can do is offer encouragement, YOU CAN DO IT. I think this is probably as safe a place as you can find. No judgements, just an open ear,and positive feedback. After all if we can not talk to one another, ask and answer questions of each other, and listen, then how else can we learn or be of assistance?


Love, hugs and peace to you friend.

I'm just dropping off a hug, So, I hope it helps I hope you can find peace We love you here

We're here with you, Só... you're not alone

I don’t post here much either (((((((( So )))))))

I’m always listening with no judgment

Sounds like you've been the victim of an expert gaslighter.


One day I decided I was going to know what I know and remember what I remember. Ain't nobody can tell me what happened was nothing at all. It was more than I could handle and still amazes me. It was real. They don't want you to really know what happened to you because they want to get away with it, you know.