PTSD stinks

I am so depressed, prozac doesn't seem to work well for you depression when you are triggered into PTSD again.

I have so much to do for school, speech on Monday about fricken Disney World and how much fun it is, when I feel like total %#@&#! right now. That is going to take some major acting to pull that one off. I am overly emotional with tears and I don't usually ever cry.

People who hurt innocent children, do they really know the life effects they are making on them.
I feel sick right now with the memories of childabuse.

I don't do that to my children, I couldn't ever, why did my mom do that to me?
My T says she is a anti social psychopath for real and she is living free in the world, while I have to go through the flashbacks of hell. It isn't fair.

(((((happyflowergirl)))))

sorry you're going thru a hard time right now

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=( hope things go ok on monday! I'm right here doing homework with ya. You're a good mom to your kids *yay for you for breaking the cycle*.
Hang in there.
Kiya

Public speaking is anxiety ridden for the average person, it is much more so when you suffer from an anxiety disorder. ((((safe hug)))) Is the presentation what is triggering you? If not, ask to speak another time?

Remember to breathe, and do your best. Then it will be done.

TC.

Thanks for the support Kalamity Jane, it truly helps.

Thanks Kiya!

I am looking forward to spring break, that is for sure! Thanks for you support!

Hi Sky,

My speech is for speech class in college. I was triggered about 3 weeks ago by something that doesn't have to do with my speech. But it seems when I am suffering directly from PTSD, it is so hard to do anything.
I am told I am a spirited and outspoken now, so public speaking should be a easy, and maybe it is normally, but not now.

Now my next speech which is suppose to be persuasive will be how to stop child abuse. That could be something hard since it is personal to me, but in a way it also will give me the drive to do it. In way, I hope I will be helping stop future abuse, and i feel good about it.
I guess I am a good student and I know how much work it takes to do well, and when I am not feeling up to par, it is so hard.

(((((happyflowergirl)))))

I hear ya. You know, until I had children, I didn't really understand that I'd been abused, I thought somehow maybe it was my fault. Then when I actually had a child there was no way ever ever that I would treat my child how I'd been treated. That helped me get some perspective on my own situation.

Thanks Cedar,

Yeah to us for stopping that cycle of abuse. I look at my kids and can't imagine ever hurting them. Heck it tears me up when I accidentally hurt their feelings once in a while. But to think about how my mom got enjoyment out of physically abusing me, I just don't understand how.