[Butterfly_Faerie]

I was laying down in my livingroom (still not feeling good) and I happened to look out of the window and saw this guy hanging out with is girlfriend across the street.... He lives with his grandmother next door to us, and his yonger sister... and at first glance he reminded me of A....The abusive ex.. when he was skinny etc.....

Then when he came closer to the house I kept trying to get a better look to see if he actually did look like him, and now this sucks because he lives next door to us.

I've seen him before and didn't think anything of it but I think it was the way he was dressed, and wearing his baseball cap...

[wisewoman]

I hate when my mind does that to me. Even though my brain knows it's not the scarey person the feelings are all there. It is so hard. Remember it's your self trying to protect you and there is no current danger.

[Butterfly_Faerie]

<font color="purple"> Triggered again last night.
Saw a picture of him on the computer, and that sucked.

And yet I kept looking at it, once I clicked it off and then I clicked it back on again.

I wasn't comfortable looking at him just something inside me felt hot, or uncomfortable.. </font>