[Lexicon78]

I have a big HUGE problem. About a month ago me and my dad were wrestling around and I had a flashback of being raped. Now everytime I stay with him I dream about him sexually assaulting me.

He's never done anything to hurt me so why would I dream these things or even think these things???? He's a wonderful man, but my thinking is so messed up! What's wrong with me????

Now lately I'm back to thinking that men are out to rape me or just hurt me really bad.

[Rapunzel]

Lexi,

You've got to talk to somebody about it, honey. I know it's hard. But continuing to have that feeling that your dad is going to assault you, even though you know he isn't, is going to be harder on you in the long run. I wish that I knew how to help you with this, but it's something that you are going to need to work on in therapy. I can understand where that feeling is coming from - you just got in a situation with him, wrestling, where you had some feelings that reminded you of being assaulted, and it is perfectly understandable that you reacted to that the way you have, and it's not your fault or your dad's fault - it just happened. But in order to stop those dreams, and feel safe again, you are going to have to process those feelings.

[(JD)]

Sorry lexi about your having these flashbacks... try not to push yourself thinking about what it means... sometimes it's the person who harmed you and sometimes it isn't, so don't jump to any conclusions. You might need therapy to get you through this part of your healing process, like Rap said....