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Yesterday was a very very very hard day. I had flashbacks and intense overwhelming feelings. I tried everything to feel better. I couldnt do it. I tried all day to reach one of my therapists and didnt get a hold of her until after 5 pm. It started from my reg therapists triggering me last week. It was very innocent on her part and had nothing to do with me. SInce then I have been going back and forth in feeling ok then flashbacks and over powering feelings. I think the over powering feelings are a form of flashbacks. Yesterday I couldnt do it any longer. I was going to the hospital to see if they could help me stop the cycle of flashbacks. I never ever want to go to the hospital. I was in one when I was 18-19. Very scary experience. Im kind of mad at my therapists. I followed all the preplanning we had done, and they dropped the ball on their part. When I finally got a hold of one it took like 10 min to help me. I must say I called her around 5 and asked if she was busy and she said yes so I said never mind and hung up . Then I just lost it.I called her back and told her I didnt need her and I wasnt coming back. She finally got how triggered I was. SHe hadnt gotten any of my phone calls she was busy all day. She helped me by suggesting I put these feelings and stuff in a real box ane keep them there until I see her Thursday. That was so simple and so helpful. I have the flashbacks still but instead of thinking about it I just remember its in the box. Im doing ok today kinda drained. Thanks for listening.

[crazy1]

Wow that really helped me. I have been freaking out myself and keep thinking i should call my T but don't want to bug her. I am thinking of you and hoping you find peace. :void(0)

[freespirit1980]

MINIME:

My heart speaks when I tell you I completely understand and behind you 100 percent. This is a horrible, frightening disorder that is very hard to treat, unless you catch it immediately after the trauma occurred. Unfortunately, very few of us have that benefit.

PTSD started showing up in my life in 1972. But there was no diagnosis or treatment then. By the time there was, it was too late. Basically, I am just treading water one day at a time.

[MINIME]

Thanks u guys, It feels good to be understood. What really got me scared yesterday between flashbacks was thinking that this will never end. With EMDR we work on one trauma at a time. It helps but then there is another one to take its place. I hate being this way, and its not my fault. Its like I had no choice. I didnt. Im mad. its a horriable disease.

[Kiya]

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Kiya

[Fuzzybear]

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