I have this huge fear I'll turn into my dad or half-brother. I look in the mirror and I can just see them. I have eyes that look so much like my dad's.

I'd never do what he did, I know that, I'm not him, but I'm just scared because we were family there's some twisted story that runs through our blood. He did drugs all the time. I remember when I was younger and got faced with drugs and did the stupid thing by getting involved. Years later, I'm a complete idiot because I'll say I hate drugs because he did them but I'm addicted myself.

At least I'm quitting, something he never did. At least I'm trying to improve and be a good person. But sometimes I feel what does it matter, he won. They won.

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((((Griffe))))

They didn't win hun, you won because you chose never to be like them, you are a wonderful person Griffe don't let those fears get to you. Addiction is hard battle but your trying and that is what matters. I wish I had more to say but I am lost for words today, I'm sorry, if you ever need to talk do feel free to pm me. I am always here for you.


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[Kiya]

i agree - it is our choices that make us different! You are choosing to quit. You choose to not do the violence he did. You are not lke him. you win. everytime you make a new choice that steps away from violence, YOU WIN.

((((((((((griffe))))))))))))