[silentandscared]

Hting not working and just keep going straight in into itelp stuck in this terrible terribl plce and l cant get back to here and now.Cutting not hepling just keep going straight back in. Need to refocus but cant. Oh %#@&#! plaese help me. Why is thsi happening to me??????why wont it all stop so badly need it all to stop!!!!!!!!!!! please help me make the world stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nee to stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[nowheretorun]

((silent)))) you are feeling pain because of sadnesses around you.. can you alter your environment in some way? sometimes when we cant change our environement it helps to change our perception of the environment... sometimes we feel there is no hope, no lifeline and we feel that all around us is darkness and the spin is already out of control.. it makes us feel more helpless ..

helpessness is another delusion and lie we tell ourselves.. there is a lot of help out there... we must be willing to step towards the light if we hope to feel its warmth..

praying today will be less painful for you somehow..

[silentandscared]

thank you
today is a much better day l have been to see T and told her whta is happening and what has been going on for the last week. She already knew most of it but was trying to find out if l trusted her enough to tell her.So yesterday l was stuck and couldnt get back but today feel took a step forward. Only cut three times today!! miracle.
Thank you for the words of support and encouragementxxx

[nowheretorun]

(((silent)))))) thank you, i'm a worrier.. glad today is better for you and i know it can get better and better as time goes by... from involving myself with others healing, i gain encouragement from the courage others show... please keep trying also, even tho i know its a long and painful journey to where we go.. we can all get there together in some ways and that helps me to have some hope for all of us and each of us... thank you.. sorry if ive offended..