Too much. Too stressful. Too many "reminders" and "alarm bells" going off everywhere.

I thought I could handle this. I was wrong.

I find myself getting highly annoyed and angry at my mother for not taking care of herself and then of course, guilt settles in and I feel horrible.

I also feel horible because she is driving me crazy.

I know...I know...

But if not here, where?

[Fuzzybear]

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sending calm furry and gentle thoughts and vibes to help you get through this horrible time

[cantstopcrying]

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[MINIME]

You not only can do this..you are doing this. Doing 'this" doesnt mean that we wont have set backs. Its not all smooth sailing and happy feelings. You have not given up you keep walking foward so you are doing it. Hang in there and know that this will pass.

[katheryn]

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This too shall pass.

This too shall pass.

This too shall pass.

This too shall pass.

This too shall pass.

[katheryn]

this too shall get better

this too shall get better

this too shall get better

this too shall get better

this too shall get better

[MINIME]

yes it will. Hang in there. Also just bcause it will pass I know it doesnt make it feel any better, it just helps you hang on.

[allthegirls6]

Orange, you are allowed to be pissed off, anyone would. Its hard enough but gets worse when the patient wont take responsibility for their health. All I can say is that I hope you can hang in there. We are worried about you

[gardenergirl]

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[SweetSunshine]

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Please dont be so hard on yourself hon. I know your mom is the one with the illness right now, but your going thru it also with her. Your allowed to be feeling frustration . She knows in her heart that your not mad at her, but at the cancer. The best thing to do is to just hold her hand and yes even have a cleansing cry with her. Maybe she needs to do this with you. It shows you understand eachother and neither one of you are alone .

I'm thinking of you both and sending you safe hugs and love .

~Beth

[Justgiving]

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Thank you all so much.

[nowheretorun]

take care of you (((((Orange)))))))) so you can be strong for yourself and others too.. i understand the weariness that slowly builds over time as we care for others.. its so important we take our time outs and replenish our spirits... for all its effort it is worth every moment.. no doubt there is peace for us in the end... take care always my good friend..

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always standing by you my friend
I wish you did not have to deal with this

((( muffin )))

((( NWTR )))

Thanks for all of your support.

[Fuzzybear]

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((( Fuzzy )))

Thanks for all your furry hugs.

((((( Orange ))))) Take care, wishing you and your mum well.

[Fuzzybear]

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You may not think you can do this, but we all know you can and will.... because we are strong us survivors .... Our minds tell uswecant go on.... ut we always do ....and we always win .... don'tfell guilty, you are hurting and worried about your mom..... keep reaching for our love and help, we are here always ...... tale time out for you is important ..... even ifonly for a while....

I have the upmost faith in you

Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo hugs

[(JD)]

It's so difficult. But because it is difficult does not mean that you taking time to refresh yourself, to calm yourself, to rest and regroup, it doesn't mean that doing all that is selfish or not allowed.

In fact, it is required. A required part of being able to to "do this" and this type of trial IS to learn to not overdo. You can't control many things in this situation. The frustration could be overwhelming. Take time for yourself - real time, not just for taking care of your own issues and daily living needs- to reenergize so that you have what you need when you really want to give it to your mom.

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Thinking of you. I know how hard it is.

Thanks for your support everyone.

Saw P-doc today and I'll see T tomorrow so I am in good hands.

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