visions

I don't know if this should be here or in self-injury.

But, i keep having visions of deep knife cuts on my thighs.
And guns pointed and shot at my head
And frying pans banging into my skull.
And....

I am not doing it. there is no one in the visions. just the objects, the weapons and the blood.

My T says I am flashbacking or having PTSD to when I self-injured.

What the ****??????

That's a weird thing for your T to say
I get those thoughts too...

I've always just thought they were violent impulses towards self and should be ignored

but then again I half-thought the snow this afternoon was really ashes from a volcano eruption or maybe nuclear fallout and I was being poisoned by it.

Just so I'm clear..is this something you physically see just as you see your computer as you type or is it a mental image

if you are having flashbacks to previous self harm - did your T give you things to do when this happens? you have to remind yourself that that was the past - that you are safe now - put ice in your hands or do somthing to distract yourself till you feel ok again - stay safe

They are mental images, Lionking. Thank goodness!

I'm not sure if it makes a difference. I know when I had my meltdown, I physically saw black eyes in people around me. The psych dude that was working on my issue said he was leaning towards it being bi-polar but acknowledges a strong PTSD element. The catch if I understood it correctly was that I physically saw this, i.e. hallucinations. I've never had that experience again. I know I am highly sensitive to a bi-polar diagnosis so that makes me "hopeful" that it's PTSD issue instead.

Im new here just today My name is roxy. I have had my share of visions also, sometime they cause a panic attack but there is always alot of blood and me getting hurt or hurting someone This is why I have search the internet and found all of you today Ive left messages all over this site hoping that some one will reply to me I suffer from a variety of diagnoses and have been homebound for 5 years now. ILL be happy to communicate with you about anything Im happy for the company Thanks roxy