I only shared this with a few people, but I need to write this down so it will become real.

A family member went missing on Thursday evening. She was last seen leaving work.

They found her about an hour ago. The news is not good. Her passing was deliberate.

I can't get in touch with hubby. I am trying to hold it together but I feel myself heading into a PTSD meltdown for many, many different reasons.

I dont want to break the news to my husband.

[oksomaybeimnuts]

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[Elysium]

(((((OrangeBlossom)))))

Just breathe....In and out!

I am with you now, sitting with you. You are not alone!!

Deep breath in...long breath out!!

I am very sorry!!

I can imagine how difficult it is going to be to tell hubby. You are strong!! If you need to, you can imagine me sitting with you and know I am there to support you as you tell him.

If you need to...contact your T...K.

But most importantly....just breath!!

I got in touch with hubby. He's on his way home. I called T earlier today to tell her what was going on. We talked for awhile. I felt better when I hung up and then a few hours later . . . the news we were all afraid to hear. It stirs up so much of my own stuff, plus after losing my mom, aunt and cousin all so close together, it just seems way toooooooooo much to handle right now. Her poor kids.

Thank you both for your support.

[Elysium]

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

I got in touch with hubby. He's on his way home. I called T earlier today to tell her what was going on. We talked for awhile. I felt better when I hung up and then a few hours later . . . the news we were all afraid to hear. It stirs up so much of my own stuff, plus after losing my mom, aunt and cousin all so close together, it just seems way toooooooooo much to handle right now. Her poor kids.

Thank you both for your support.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family...

[(JD)]

((((hugs)))) I'm glad you called your T, and I hope you can call again whenever necessary. I'm so sorry for your loss...again...

You are doing the right thing to stay focused on yourself and your own self care. If you can't verbally say things...write them out, even to hubby.... stay safe.

Remember, while this is a tragic event, everything feels heightened because of the PTSD... it's easy to be overwhelmed with "normal" stress...and this is not normal.

Take care of you. Do only what is in your own best interest...but DO those things, no matter what!

((((((((((((((((orange)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I have no words but I am so sorry.
My thought are with you .

[katheryn]

((((((((((((((orange and family))))))))))))))

[phoenix7]

I am so sorry orange blossom - I am here sitting with you too glad you got hold of your husband and yout T - I have no more words - I am so sorry

[Yoda]

I am so sorry

Thank you everyone. Everything is so messed up. I just can't stand it anymore.

T called and talked to hubby for about a half hour. That was so thoughtful of her. It meant a lot.

I soooo wanted to call my mom today to tell her about what happened.

Oh, (((((((((((((((((((((((((Orange)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I wish I could do more than send hugs.

Know that I am thinking of you. Lean on T. Take care of YOU. Do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself.

I'm having trouble getting "the image" out of my head. (The one I told you about that relates to something I wrote.) T said it was a strong, hostile message that was left, and that the items signified a beginning, a middle and an end. She was also floored that I'd written about it that long ago.

Seems such an insignificant thing to say but wanted to add my sincere condolence for your loss, your stress, your pain. Horrible horrible.

[thelionkinglives]

(((Orange Blossom)))

If you need to share anything Both myself & bearchic34 are here too listen

These unexpected moments like this can really knock you on your backside

my deepest condolences

[cantstopcrying]

(((((((((((orange))))))))))))))))) I know it seems life is coming at you fast and furious with more than you can handle, more sadness and loss than you should have to handle. Please know that your family here supports you and you can count on any one of us to be here for you, to bounce your thoughts off of, to hear you vent, to sit with you while you cry.

Thanks so much everyone. Your support is welcomed and appreciated.

[phoenix7]

Sitting with you -

[(JD)]

Been wonderin' what the heck my purpose on earth is other than to go to funerals and bury the dead. Some people believe when we are born we are here to learn certain lessons.

And mine would be???

Not to get too attached to people because they'll leave you in life and they'll leave you in death.

It's a win-win for them.

[(JD)]

I know it feels that way... but you know that isn't true.

You give so many members here some fun times...it's a good sub-purpose imo.

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

Been wonderin' what the heck my purpose on earth is other than to go to funerals and bury the dead. Some people believe when we are born we are here to learn certain lessons.

And mine would be???

Not to get too attached to people because they'll leave you in life and they'll leave you in death.

It's a win-win for them.

i've often wondered the same thing. i'm quite certain, however, that you've positively touched many lives. Don't underestimate your positive impact on the world. It's a much better place for having you in it. i don't know why we suffer so much but purpose is often unknown as we ripple into the universe.

[phoenix7]

it must feel like that at the moment - I am sorry all this is happening/has happened to you - you are cared about by so many here - you are a kind and caring person and I have no doubt that you have touched and improved peoples lives IRL as well as here -

Thank you all for being here with me through this.

[phoenix7]

Will sit with you as long as you need me to