[not quite right]

Worried that seeking mental help could end up getting me commited.

[beauflow]

I think you should try to help yourself--

Help yourself includes a lot of things

Helping your self includes if needed to go into a professional and to seek their advice and guidance.
It can be simply reading more of what you are concerned with, and trying to take steps by yourself to "be the better you".
Talking to others that are similar to you as well- like here on PC- I have gotten so much help from some members that some times it is shocking.
It can be taking out something that you may very well know is negative- I.e. if you do drugs- stopping those may improve your life- and Yes that would be helping you.
Or eating more balanced, taking care of your health is helping yourself out and can help with mental states as well.
The list I think I can go on with "help yourself"

I can understand distrust with professionals- but at the same time- most people get into that career to help out others.

I remember when I went into my ex-t's place-- I was worried that I would be locked away-- My father used to always tell me-- Don't ever let a Psychiatric/Psychologist get their hands on me or I would be locked away-- He meant it too.

I wasn't locked away. I found people that I got to talk to, even if I still have struggles today.

With the meds- I told the intake guy and my therapist and one pdoc what I really thought on that---- I wont repeat it here because some may say it sounds rather crazy! But still---

Now that is not to say if anything goes-- They do have laws with them that they too must go by. If you have an actual plan for suicide or homicide- you may be reported but that is because it is in their Oath- Their Job- To keep you protected and others as well.

This DOES NOT mean TO NOT talk about the thoughts or ideas thought or feelings.. They will ask if You have a plan... Or ever thought out a plan...

- I did that with my ex-t - I told her about some of my thoughts with both things--- She did give me some insight that makes them a little less these days.
With one pdoc I talked about past plans with suicide and past attempts.

But then again I live in the US, and I went in a few years ago- in 2011...

I hope someone else can hope on and give you more insight.

At any rate--- Even going to a professional for help --- you need to do your part as well- So you are still helping yourself when you go.
They have no magic pill to just cure you of what ever your issues are-- Some Medications DO help people but there is other management that needs to be taken as well- talk therapy can help people as well, and guidance is sometimes what people need in their life.

I hope you well and whatever it is that you need for you to be better for yourself and to feel better- I hope you can figure out or get help with figuring out what you need as an individual.

I don't like the idea of pretending that everything this ok and go on-- That could very well break you to worse than you are now.
And to give into sanity-- I just don't know... would you want to do that- part of you realizes you have sources that you could get help, or you wouldn't be here on PC, right?

[shortandcute]

Sometimes, I feel like I want to get committed.

[not quite right]

I think insanity is the only thing I've ever commited to. not sure it's something i particularly want, but it's very likely something i need. i'm still pushing on in this reality that is almost unbearable

[beauflow]

Originally Posted by not quite right

I think insanity is the only thing I've ever commited to. not sure it's something i particularly want, but it's very likely something i need. i'm still pushing on in this reality that is almost unbearable

Sometimes it seems unbearable but it can sometimes be amazing what some changes can make too.

I know one thing that has kept me going is to keep trying, even if at times there's seems no change, usually there is, I just may be blind to it at moments....

Sometimes, for some of us, our prescription on life can be a cause for so much turmoil.

I hope you can find some help, what ever that may be for you.
Life shouldn't be a living hell for one, or unbearable all,the time.

Many good thoughts your way

[not quite right]

Most times I feel there is no help for me. that I am meant to exist in this state of unreality for some unkowable reason & this is the way it will always be. I cannot say I've accepted it, but am just too mentally exhausted to seek some insight into what can be changed. In some aspects I have just given up.