 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Sep 27, 2017, 11:37 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I scored 181 with 15 serious concerns...
I'm losing my mind, I'm pretty sure of this. But I don't know what to do. I'm 30 and I have no health insurance. It's been getting consistently worse since I was a teenager, but now days I'm not sure what is real and what is in my head. So many shocking things have happened in my life, and it seems like before I can get over one thing there is another thing suddenly occurring that's even more traumatic and I'm stuck in a never-ending loop of loss and sadness. I can't control my thoughts or actions very well anymore, but I'm not violent and so I don't want to be locked away in an asylum. I'm just scared, really scared. I want help, but only if it will fit into my life without removing me from the world that I don't feel like I'm a part of anyways. I don't want to go anywhere though, like ever. Not alone anyways. And my anxiety is so bad I can't walk into an office to talk, I'm getting that tingling sensation of "fight or flight" right now simply from thinking about it. Or maybe it's from typing out my thoughts. Admitting I need help. And now my mind is suddenly screaming at me saying that I'm fine and that I'm just being dramatic and "crying wolf" as they say, but I know this isn't true because this can't be normal. But I don't know what normal is. I may be normal. I don't really know anymore. My areas of concern are: General Coping, Life Events, Depression, Anxiety, Phobias, Self-Esteem, Schizophrenia, Dissociation, Mania & Bipolar Disorder, Alcohol/Drug Issues, Gambling Issues, Technology Issues, Obsessions & Compulsions, Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and Borderline Traits. All of the numbers were pretty high too... I need advice |
 Purple,Violet,Blue
|
|
#2
Sep 29, 2017, 09:05 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Sorry to hear that. Have you been able to tell anyone in your life that you are struggling?
|
|
#3
Oct 06, 2017, 02:07 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I'd say that posting here is a first step. You've made that step and now it's time to think about what your next step will be. It sounds like you are fearful of therapy, but I do think that could be a logical next step for you. It's something to consider anyway.
Are you under the care of a medical doctor? He or she could refer you to a therapist. Hugs out to you.
__________________
"Do you know what’s really scary? You want to forget something. Totally wipe it off your mind. But you never can. It can’t go away, you see. And… and it follows you around like a ghost." ~ A Tale of Two Sisters (Janghwa, Hongryeon) (2003) "I feel like an outsider, and I always will feel like one. I’ve always felt that I wasn’t a member of any particular group." ~ Anne Rice |
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
