[dasiy6]

My daughter has taken abilify in the past. After she got her first Rx filled she was sent a letter from the pharmacy reminding her how important it was to take this medication and "helpful" hints to help her "deal with her illness". Hints such as, don't withdraw from people, have supports in place to deal with a return of symptoms, etc.

Okay, I am sure that the powers that be thought that was a nice gesture ......although she felt that it was only because it was an anti-psychotic....not an antibiotic

Then if she was late in refilling her Rx, she received another letter reminding her that she was late, was there a problem, did the dr know she was not taking this medication any longer, etc. She felt like big brother was watching her. She is 21 and a senior in college. I told her not to be upset, that people were not judging her, just concerned.

Cut to me.........I take clozaril...for my psychotic depression with strong suicidal ideation. This anti-psychotic requires bi-weekly bloodwork before they will fill your next Rx. I understand that requirement and have done that for the past 2 yrs!

Because of my job I occasionally have to spend time away from home and am responsible for other peoples care while away. The clozaril really knocks me out, so I cut the dose when I am responsible for others on overnights.

Yesterday I got the bloodwork and today I went to pick up the Rx. The pharmasist asked if I had filled it in August at another pharmacy........which I can't because only a few pharmacy are allowed to dispense it. When I said no, they asked if I had been taking the medication, I said yes but had cut the dose for awhile do to circumstances. They asked if I had cut the dose on my own or with Dr. approval.....on my own I replied. With that they said they could not fill the Rx until Tues because they needed to notify the drug company (and probably my Dr no doubt).

I feel just like my daughter........... Hi, this is me. I am crazy!!! I need to be watched.........Lord knows what I am capable of doing........

I am at the point of saying...........

I AM TIRED OF BEING CONTROLLED BY MEDS.........SCREW THEM AND LET WHAT WILL BE BE!!!

Thanks for listening.............anyone else?

wow! i've never had a pharmacist pay that kind of attention to me. i did have one that helped me get off EffexorXR, but she didn't ask questions about what i did with the pills. that is really weird, expecially the refusal to fill the script because you halved the pills.

[kimmydawn]

wow, i've never heard the like! i know that pharmacists will do that sort of thing if a person tries to get a script filled early (alot of times they won't just say know, they'll also call the dr.), but late? wow!

i would be extremely ticked and change pharmacies. what in the world???

be safe,

kd

[dasiy6]

I realize that clozaril is a unique medication. It requires biweekly blood work be done and the results of your WBC be called into the pharmacy before you can even fill your Rx. It also carries the label of "last resort" as far as anti-psychotics go.

Maybe I am just feeling down.....I haven't been sleeping well with the lower doses of the clozaril. And heck.....now I won't sleep at all until.........God knows when.......

I am just sick........sick of this "illness", sick of going to Drs to try to "explain" what I am feeling........
I hate feeling........hell, I hate not feeling............

I hate the stigma this illness carries!!!

I hate saying "I" so much, why bother..................

I am sorry for ranting.....take care everyone