[pinkbutterfly]

Ok...so I KNOW I should NOT do this, but I feel like I have NO other choices. I saw a pdoc in June. He started me on wellbutrin - 100mg once a day. He even said it's just a starting dose. Next appt: Sept 6.
I have tried to get in, I know something has to be done, and I know I am not on the "normal" dosage of it...

I am looking into other psychiatrists at the moment because the place I am begin seen is horrible -- I have tried to get in, and I can't. It's looking like I have just a couple of options...go to the hospital for med adjustment, or do my own med adjustment knowing I will have just enough meds if I do so to get me to the next scheduled appointment (in the meantime searching for a better pdoc)...or just suffer through with increasing suicidal thought and increasing depression because my current place doesn't care.

Yesterday I went to their walkin hours, I was told by my case manager that it starts at 2pm, so if I get there around 1:30 it should be good. I got there at 1:15 and it was already full. I literally broke down right there. She was standing there near the receptionist too. Neither of them said a word to me. I had talked with her on the phone earlier that morning and told her that I really was NOT ok. Then for me to have a breakdown like that and just walk out I feel was totally irresponsible of them. Obviously I wasn't ok. What if I had left and killed myself? I certainly FELT like doing so!

Anyway, I did some research and the normal dosage is 300mg -- 100mg 3x/day or the 150mg 2x/day. So I have decided that since I cannot get a hold of a psychaitrist, and I don't want to go into the hospital, I am going to adjust my own medication and see what it does.

[Travelinglady]

I'm so sorry you are having problems getting back in to see the doc. I know what you mean about really needing to see a doc, but not being let in.

Remember if you "adjust" your med on your own, then you will run out before you can get a new prescription.

I assume you are really feeling depressed?

[pinkbutterfly]

Yes, my depression has been very bad. In fact in my last session my T brought up the hospital.

As far as running out...I happened to have some extras that will get me through until Sept 5 with increased dose. And if all else fails and I can't see someone else before that, I have an appt with my current psychiatrist on sept 6.

[medicalfox]

Can't you call your psychiatrist for increasing the mg? I just got a new psychiatrist and I only can see him every three months (unless I snag a spot) so if I ever need anything I have to call him. Also does the facility you go to have multiple psychiatrist? If so, maybe switch to one of them if they have openings for patients. Get your therapists recommendations and talk to them about the situation. If you truly don't like that facility, being hospitalized would benefit you and they could help you find a new therapist and psychiatrist at a different facility. That's what they did for me and it's been pretty great so far. I hope this helps!

[sandysay]

In 17y, I have had 4 dr's and (except for one) I was able to reach them by phone and get an appointment as needed, even if my regular appt was a month away. At the very beginning, I was frustrated finding a dr I liked, would work w/me, and would let me call or come in when needed. So, I kept looking. But, when you are at your worst, that's the last thing you want to be doing.
Considering how you are feeling and no one is available to help right now, UP YOUR MEDS.

[pinkbutterfly]

it's going to be AT LEAST a month before I can see anyone. No phone appointments or anything like that. They don't do that. Their next available appointment when I called was out in November -- my appointment is in September.

I see my T in about an hour. And I think I know the result. I think I will be going to the hosptial tonight. I will not go to the hospital here. Trying to decide between two hosptials - both are about an hour away.