[Sila]

I went to see a pdoc for the first time several months ago, and she immediately prescribed me Depakote for my anxiety. Kinda threw me off a bit, as my anxiety isn't constant, nor do I have any real signs of mood swings or anything like bipolar etc. Anyway, I followed her instructions and went back a few weeks later and still had no effects. So she upped the dose and added seroquel. By this time, I started to regain the weight I had lost once I started my thyroid meds. Not happy. I trucked through it for another 2 months or so, but I wasn't feeling anything and I wasn't too happy with the pdoc for other reasons. We don't 'click', we butt heads and we don't get along. I'm searching for a new one.
I accidentally started taking myself off my meds when my mom forgot to refill my prescription for like 3 days. That disrupted my routine enough so I forgot to take them once I did get them again...and I just haven't taken them since. No side effects, no withdrawls, nothing. Just guilt- because I haven't told my T. She hasn't asked, but I feel bad about not mentioning it. I'm sensitive, and I dont like to disappoint people.
I'm thinking about just waiting until I get a new pdoc, telling them and then seeing what they think I should do. I dont really believe I need to be on antipsychotics for moderate anxiety that's entirely enviromental. I could use something to help lessen the effects in the moment, but I'm also in therapy to help with it.

I dunno why I wrote this. I just needed to kinda get it off my chest I guess. Wondering if anyone else has done this, what I should do, etc.

[onionknight]

I dont really believe I need to be on antipsychotics for moderate anxiety that's entirely enviromental. I could use something to help lessen the effects in the moment, but I'm also in therapy to help with it.

Did your doctor explain the reasoning behind the medicine choice? It seems like it would have made more sense to give you an antidepressant. You shouldn't feel guilty about stopping the medication. It seems like it wasn't helping and was causing weight gain; plus, you have your doubts. Look for another psychiatrist and talk with them about getting on an antidepressant or maybe a benzo as needed.

You have a right to feel comfortable with the medication you are taking. Do not let anyone pressure you into taking a medication when you don't understand why you are taking it.

[-jimi-]

I don't understand at all why the doc put you on such harsh meds. I don't think you are bad for coming off them. I would have questioned the meds in the first place. A mood stabilizer for occasional anxiety??? And seroquel has become way too common, people who should not take it do so. Heck knows why.

If it was me I would pull a half lie, say I stopped the meds but not say it was that long ago. And then I would say that they didn't help and I wonder why I should even take that type of med.

[Sila]

The only 'explaining' she did was repeating my symptoms back at me. Me being desperate for some sort of relief, having exhausted myself from sheer anxiety about the appointment for weeks before hand, and trying to trust- decided to go along with her decisions. I had heard of the meds but I wasn't aware entirely what they were for until I got home and looked it up. I gave it a test run but wasn't too happy.
She has multiple reviews on other sites that all say that she's done the same thing to other people. And while I usually try to give the benefit of the doubt before trusting reviews- I have to say it's kinda sad that my experience followed the same. Other reviews say she doles out mood stabilizers and diagnoses people with mood disorders when there's already preexisting anxiety disorders instead, etc.
I'm torn on how to go about this, because I dont want to let my T down or make myself look irresponsible or anything. I'll figure it out eventually.

[-jimi-]

Stop putting that on yourself. We're not perfect. You don't have to be the perfect patient. And all this wasn't even your fault. Your doc has blinkers on and wants to see mood disorders. That is not your fault. It is a bad doc. You shouldn't have to deal with a doc that projects symptoms onto you!